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I don’t mean to keep writing about this. I shouldn’t feel bad because this is my journal but, I don’t know. I just miss him so much! This is harder than I thought it would be. I am trying my hardest to stay strong for him but I am starting to fall apart. I understand that when being in a relationship, at least a serious one, you become an us and not me and you…if that made sense. And I know I am sounding really selfish by saying this but, why do I have to be punished by his stupidity. He needs to learn time management. Ugh, I just don’t understand. If I had homework I told him I couldn’t do anything until I was done. Why couldn’t he just do that? Even though he was the one asking to come over he should know to do school work first and then call me! I don’t mean to sound selfish, I really don’t. I am really glad that he is serious about his work and I am proud of him but he shouldn’t have let it get this far and to his point where we both have to suffer. I don’t even see him in the halls anymore. I haven’t seen him since Friday. I have talked to him since then but I haven’t seen him. Besides yesterday at the end of the hall but…yeah. I just miss him so much and I know this is killing both of us so I don’t understand why we are doing it. I mean, I do but I don’t. Gosh, why must relationships be so hard! I keep trying to tell myself that this will only make us stronger in the long run but that’s so hard until you are there, ya know? :( I just want this to be over.