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So pissed right now! Just got done driving around with my dad. I can’t stand driving with him. I swear he either thinks I am an idiot or I have a death wish because he is always saying, “Stop! Amanda slow down!” When I am already on the break and going like 15mph. I’m not an idiot I know what I am doing. Yes I understand that he has more experience but he takes it too far sometimes. And he gets so pissed so quickly and that was setting me off and he was like “You can’t let little things set you off while you are driving.” And I go, “YOU ARE SETTING ME OFF!” And after that he pretty much said nothing. I just wish I could say how I really feel to my rents somehow. And I honestly don’t mean that in a mean way. I hate when they ask how I feel when all I say is wrong anyway. Yeah, I’m going off the subject of driving but…ugh. I saw this quote on someone’s away message and I fell in love with it. “I don’t understand why during the first three years out parents teach us to walk and talk and then the next 15 years they tell us to sit down and shut up.” SO TRUE! I love, love, love that!
Anyway. Time is going by so fast! Today we filled out a slip of paper dealing with our graduation gowns. Holy crap! I’m not ready for this. I don’t feel like I am graduating. I graduate in 6 months and three days. It just doesn’t seem real. If it brings me to tears now imagine how I will be on graduation day. Ugh.
I don’t know what is wrong with me. Lately I am on my last nerve. Everything is getting to me. I just feel like bawling but nothing seems to come out. I don’t have much of an appetite and I’m so dang tired all the time. And I don’t feel like being around anyone. I just want to be alone. I am so sick of people right now. I hate this feeling.