I don't know
It's been a while since I updated this thingy. I guess its because I haven't had anything really interesting happen. Today was a karaoke contest. It was interesting because there were a lot of people there and everything...15 contestants etc. It was nice...sorta. I felt nervous most of the time and I felt so much pressure.
the problem is that I am supposed to be happy because I placed second. I'm actually supposed to be really happy because I was originally going to place first, but the judges decided to change the standards last minute.
Ugh. I feel terrible. The judges mixed me and this girl's name up by mistake...so they gave her the award then said that they made an error while we were on stage and she had to give me her award. The stupid thing was that I was so afraid of her beating me...ugh...I made her feel bad...and that made me feel bad too...
winning didn't feel so great afterwards...but I guess one of us has to be happy...I don't know...I feel mixed. I'm happy I accomplished so many new things today: singing on stage for the first time...actually winning something...getting to the second round even...realising who the fuck actually cares about me (of course that brings up other issues that really mess me up...but thats for another day)...
the problem is that I am supposed to be happy because I placed second. I'm actually supposed to be really happy because I was originally going to place first, but the judges decided to change the standards last minute.
Ugh. I feel terrible. The judges mixed me and this girl's name up by mistake...so they gave her the award then said that they made an error while we were on stage and she had to give me her award. The stupid thing was that I was so afraid of her beating me...ugh...I made her feel bad...and that made me feel bad too...
winning didn't feel so great afterwards...but I guess one of us has to be happy...I don't know...I feel mixed. I'm happy I accomplished so many new things today: singing on stage for the first time...actually winning something...getting to the second round even...realising who the fuck actually cares about me (of course that brings up other issues that really mess me up...but thats for another day)...