so my sister has yet to give me my eighteenth birthday present but that's only because i've had to spend the past month trying to figure out the best way to ask my mother if i can get a tattoo. and by "ask", i totally mean "tell, without actually letting her get a word in edgewise, because i am my own woman and technically an adult and wow i'm an adult holy crap i'm responsible for myself now okay wow let's not get into that again genina this is about how your mother can't tell you what to do with your body, at all". i'm not gonna get into it, but i went about it bluntly and my mother more or less conceded; she isn't happy but it's none of her business anyway, and yay i'm getting tatted!!!!! which is weird!!!! and cool!!!!! and mostly weird!!!!!
because i don't know what i want yet!!!!! and i don't even know what my threshold for pain is like!!!! at the very least, i know i'm going to want it to be visible. i've always wanted tattoos on my wrists or forearms or arms, or even behind my ear, because that seems like a cool little place to have something etched onto your skin. i've wanted to get inked for years, but i'm glad that i waited until now because i'm pretty sure i would've tired of an irrelevant black star on my forearm pretty quickly. i've had a hard time deciding what i want, but i've managed to narrow it down to a list of a handful of things i'd like to get over the next few years, if getting tattooed turns out to be something i find really worthwhile and meaningful. my sister told me her idea for her next tattoo, and she loves it, and i love it, so i'm excited about that. this'll be her third time getting inked.
my top two right now are the fox from the little prince . . .
(i suggest looking up 'fox little prince' or anything of the like on google images; there's a fair number of pictures of people's tattoos that take up the results. i happen to like them all a lot. at some point i want "you are responsible, forever, for what you have tamed" inked somewhere on me too. i'm not lying or exaggerating when i say this fox continually changes my life, as every time i pick up my copy of the little prince it somehow feels like i'm reading it for the first time, which really is the greatest thing you can ask for from anything; and i think it's no wonder that they're one of my favourite animals.)
. . . and/or an equal sign. that one speaks for itself.
other/future potentials: anchor, 221B, blackbird(s), lucy liu's face, other things. possible option: meet wayne coyne and convince him to write the lyrics of 'what is the light' all over my back before i go off to get it tattooed. or, better yet, hand him a tattoo gun and have him do it himself. (alternative: settle for 'love is the place that you're drawn to' in some kind of typeface across the nape of my neck, or whatever.)
well, because i took so long in talking to my mum, my sister's had to push the date back to after the holiday season. welp, it'll be a cool new-year thing! i'm excited. this has been in the making for years.