a serious entry now
Sometimes I feel like the world is spinning too fast and I can't keep up. Maybe it's just me, maybe it's just being young, but I feel that way a lot lately. I know I probably shouldn't be so stressed, because my probalems and stresses and miniscule compared to a lot of other people's and I don't want to seem like a drama queen, but I don't know, it's hard to bear through sometimes. I just have to remind myself that people go through shit, every minute of every day and if they make it through that, I can make it through my stuff. I guess I'm just ranting, but it feels good to rant sometimes. The world is going topsy-turvy and I don't know if it's always been this way and I just haven't noticed until now, or if it's just changing so much for the worse, but it's making me think twice about some important future issues that I thought I had figured out. I guess nothing's set in stone and I need to be more flexible, but I hate change, and frankly, I'm scared of what lies ahead of me. People do always fear what they don't understand or know, right? Life's so complicated, sometimes I envy people who can just say fuck it...I can't do that, I care too much, I stress too much, I think too much, I worry too much...I guess it's part of being my age, though, right? I just hope things even out soon...and I hope the world rights itself soon too...if it ever will...