Hmph. figured as much
Well its over between them (evidently). Big fucking surprise eh?
At least I wont have that banging around in the back of my skull over the summer.
One has to wonder wether it was worth all of the bullshit drama. Ahh well im sure I shall know all the details of what did or didnt happen as well as why thier "relationship" disintigrated as fast as it did. Again not much scorn at her, shes young and he can be oddly charismatic. Him on the other hand... well while I dont feel any bridges have been burnt permenantly I will never look at him and not think about this bullshit drama. I am not saying I will hold a grudge, just that im not liable to forget this horseshit any time soon.
*sigh* Now the question is do I still want to talk to her? not like ever again, but about what happened between us and why we fell apart so quick, about why it has been so awkward between us. About how I still feel about her. How do I feel about her? Perhaps i should let things settle down, see if I cant get things striaght in my own head before I go careening into anything else. Or perhaps I should say something now while I still have the balls worked up.
All I know is that whenever I see her I feel something pull at my chest, just from the knowledge that are not together and we most likely never will be again. I want to hold her and apologize for everything, anything, I might have done and that I just want to try again just want to be able to be with her again.
This even with all the bullshit. Even knowing that she probably dosent feel the same. and being unable to stop myself from feeling this way unable to let go no matter how much I want to.
...stupid fucking feelings.
*sigh* Ahh well all shall be sorted out one way or another I suppose. time wounds all heals and whathaveyou
Sorry Ive been so emo/dramawhore lately guys. Honest I will try to update with something less blindingly uninteresting and high school. Cross my fingers :).
Anyways tis late and I should be doing the last of my school stuff. See you guys later (some of you tomorrow. HOORAY BAD MOVIE NIGHT! XD)
Night.
At least I wont have that banging around in the back of my skull over the summer.
One has to wonder wether it was worth all of the bullshit drama. Ahh well im sure I shall know all the details of what did or didnt happen as well as why thier "relationship" disintigrated as fast as it did. Again not much scorn at her, shes young and he can be oddly charismatic. Him on the other hand... well while I dont feel any bridges have been burnt permenantly I will never look at him and not think about this bullshit drama. I am not saying I will hold a grudge, just that im not liable to forget this horseshit any time soon.
*sigh* Now the question is do I still want to talk to her? not like ever again, but about what happened between us and why we fell apart so quick, about why it has been so awkward between us. About how I still feel about her. How do I feel about her? Perhaps i should let things settle down, see if I cant get things striaght in my own head before I go careening into anything else. Or perhaps I should say something now while I still have the balls worked up.
All I know is that whenever I see her I feel something pull at my chest, just from the knowledge that are not together and we most likely never will be again. I want to hold her and apologize for everything, anything, I might have done and that I just want to try again just want to be able to be with her again.
This even with all the bullshit. Even knowing that she probably dosent feel the same. and being unable to stop myself from feeling this way unable to let go no matter how much I want to.
...stupid fucking feelings.
*sigh* Ahh well all shall be sorted out one way or another I suppose. time wounds all heals and whathaveyou
Sorry Ive been so emo/dramawhore lately guys. Honest I will try to update with something less blindingly uninteresting and high school. Cross my fingers :).
Anyways tis late and I should be doing the last of my school stuff. See you guys later (some of you tomorrow. HOORAY BAD MOVIE NIGHT! XD)
Night.