taking a leap backwards to where i was jumping to from behind
ok...my mom had a small scare and had to be taken to the hospital. she aparently had suffered a prolonged (but mild) heatstroke. so we finaly got our A/C fixed/my dad kinda insisted...she's ok to my knowledge just sleeping and getting an saleen drip.
i guess i don't react to this the way everyone else does...everyone at work was "oh my god go homeand call her and like talk to her" and "that's horible"
i was just kinda blah about the whole thing...i don't know..mabey i'm so set in my thinking that i can't see her dying so she can't....
any how..i'm having trouble focussing on projects these days, and am at work more than at home again...i feel distant from reality let alone people i care about.
this may seem funny to say but it's the only way i know to say it..i feel kinda fuzzy on my esdges like i'm out of focus..and the reality i'm moving through is ten minutes behind everyone elses...
yes i'm out of my anti depressants...but!..i have been off those for a month now..so it's not a big drop it's kinda...just...yeah..balh
i guess i don't react to this the way everyone else does...everyone at work was "oh my god go homeand call her and like talk to her" and "that's horible"
i was just kinda blah about the whole thing...i don't know..mabey i'm so set in my thinking that i can't see her dying so she can't....
any how..i'm having trouble focussing on projects these days, and am at work more than at home again...i feel distant from reality let alone people i care about.
this may seem funny to say but it's the only way i know to say it..i feel kinda fuzzy on my esdges like i'm out of focus..and the reality i'm moving through is ten minutes behind everyone elses...
yes i'm out of my anti depressants...but!..i have been off those for a month now..so it's not a big drop it's kinda...just...yeah..balh