various ranting since last post
god damnit. i hate it when semagic makes live journal more trouble that it is. i mean its cool and all but every few days semagi stops working! blah! anyway, im pimpin it out at my moms. lol i decided to try out starcraft on my girlfriend's new computer (i picked it out and set it up... god its sexy) and i just remembered how sweet the game really is.
so the colts depress me. they played soooo poor. we feel apart on just about every front. and when we thought we had a break, wed get a over hike or a interception or somethin. ugh. oh well they had a good run. i dont actually believe they woulda made it anyway.
so im soo glad finals are done... they were hella stressful. they really bugged me. it was just like will the work ever stop?
so tuesday is the big day. ripples are due, and, of course, i and cody are makin a huge plot based scene based roughly on our play. hopefully im hopin that with enough subliminal jokes that i say and with enough wierd things, that when ppl read/pick/or watch our play, the last 6 monthsd will make more sence, giving ppl a much much happier feel and therefore like the play better... or its just couse we love making asses opf ourselves. anywho whateva
has anyone ever had that feeling where u just wish one of your parentals would just stop talking foir any reason? that ontop of finals' stress, and some other nameless things, i kinda snapped at my dad and idk he just bugged me. anyway it ended up in me spouting off that i hate him and him just driving off. the wierd thing is that i told him that he should back off and be quiet or id snap and he didnt and then hes dissapointed in me... wtf?...
so lately ive been feeling this wierd feeling. its hard 2 explain. like it feels to me like im so close to being the happiest ive ever been ever, but im not there. its like your about to have a awsome orgasm, but she stops and your left waiting and wanting more but u dont know quite how to convey/aquire said needs. i mean its not like im sad or depressed or anything, its just like my soul or something is almost complete but not quite. like im about to break through a box ive built around me as some sort of defensive mechanism but i need that last tool to get through, to be like a was before. often ive wanted to be like myself last year or even earlier this year when i was so confident and head strong or something. when i could throw a party like that and have fun. i think my last party being how it was (wasnt bad, just dramaey) and primarily the accidents took a huge tole on my self-confidence. god i hate drama. anyway, im gonna go now. comment on this if u want or whateva
-s
so the colts depress me. they played soooo poor. we feel apart on just about every front. and when we thought we had a break, wed get a over hike or a interception or somethin. ugh. oh well they had a good run. i dont actually believe they woulda made it anyway.
so im soo glad finals are done... they were hella stressful. they really bugged me. it was just like will the work ever stop?
so tuesday is the big day. ripples are due, and, of course, i and cody are makin a huge plot based scene based roughly on our play. hopefully im hopin that with enough subliminal jokes that i say and with enough wierd things, that when ppl read/pick/or watch our play, the last 6 monthsd will make more sence, giving ppl a much much happier feel and therefore like the play better... or its just couse we love making asses opf ourselves. anywho whateva
has anyone ever had that feeling where u just wish one of your parentals would just stop talking foir any reason? that ontop of finals' stress, and some other nameless things, i kinda snapped at my dad and idk he just bugged me. anyway it ended up in me spouting off that i hate him and him just driving off. the wierd thing is that i told him that he should back off and be quiet or id snap and he didnt and then hes dissapointed in me... wtf?...
so lately ive been feeling this wierd feeling. its hard 2 explain. like it feels to me like im so close to being the happiest ive ever been ever, but im not there. its like your about to have a awsome orgasm, but she stops and your left waiting and wanting more but u dont know quite how to convey/aquire said needs. i mean its not like im sad or depressed or anything, its just like my soul or something is almost complete but not quite. like im about to break through a box ive built around me as some sort of defensive mechanism but i need that last tool to get through, to be like a was before. often ive wanted to be like myself last year or even earlier this year when i was so confident and head strong or something. when i could throw a party like that and have fun. i think my last party being how it was (wasnt bad, just dramaey) and primarily the accidents took a huge tole on my self-confidence. god i hate drama. anyway, im gonna go now. comment on this if u want or whateva
-s