this one is for you, you jew motherfisher you!
Life is so real sometimes, what you get you don't want and what you want you dont get. This is something I had to deal with almost all my life. Myspace didn't make it any better either, it made girls more "available" but not really better. Out of all the chicks I dated I did like 1 or two. Some of them were too busy, too wierd, too nerdy, too fat, too conceited too this too that.
It has been crazy ass hell. I am still talking to alyssa that jewish girl from my class, she is really getting under my skin, she always has been. I hate it when things like that happend to me, its almost like she is controlling me with all her actions and the things she says. I have no clue how I could mess that up, I blame myself for it but in reality I haven't really done anything wrong. yes I did come across alittle too strong at first because I thought I already had her...there she was this cute chick that had fainted feelings for me but it was not enough for her to make some time for me. She sounds like a litte kid when she speaks and my natural instict was to give her some guidance (as I always do with all my guy friends or whoever else acts stupid) but it all backfired on me.
We went out once...kissed and that was the end of the story. I was really into her at some point I dont' even remember. All I can say is that the whole thing was pretty shitty. ON the phone she sounds like a 13 year old HS ghetto girl...which I dispair alot, I'm out of that age and I don't listen "to dem niggas on BET" anymore but she appearently does, she is a 20 year old white caucausian rapper...she writes freestyles wow and on top of that she is nerdy with a 3.75 GPA. But she is pretty good looking with a pretty casual dress style. (in other words she doesn't really dress like that or acts like that in general public) I could not figuere this chick out at all. I gave up completely. Sometimes I feel very inferior in her presence and that feeling kills me. I wouldn't necessarly say that she hurt me because I knew she would not get too deep involved with me therefore I made sure not get too emotional with her either.
She is still in my class sitting right next to me, for the past 4 lectures or so I haven't even talked to her because I feel everything I say will be not good enough for her. Sometime i just stop and think about why I'm so into her, what is it about her that drives me nuts? Its certainly not her personality cuz that bitch stinks! I do not know what I'm going to do with her, she seems to be very busy with school work and all...and on the other side my girl jenna is making some big progress in impressing me big time. I had a great time last nite, she is sooo good to me. She is my medicine for stress, I feel like I could go to her for anything and she would help and share some love. I cannot say that about lots of other chicks I had in the past. She texts me more than I can send back to her LOL (I love that stuff). Plus all her messages are love related somehow. She wants me to marry her someday, she wants me to move to gainsville with her to go to med school and we been dating for a little over 2 weeks. I think she is a keeper because she is soo true, lonely and trustworthy-exactly what I need right now cuz thats kind of what I am lol. More and more she is gaining my trust with every date we have, I feel like she is getting closer and closer. All her friends are gay and she even told me once that she is so happy to have a "real man" in her life. I have her where I could do anything with her but I will stay true to her...for now.
It has been crazy ass hell. I am still talking to alyssa that jewish girl from my class, she is really getting under my skin, she always has been. I hate it when things like that happend to me, its almost like she is controlling me with all her actions and the things she says. I have no clue how I could mess that up, I blame myself for it but in reality I haven't really done anything wrong. yes I did come across alittle too strong at first because I thought I already had her...there she was this cute chick that had fainted feelings for me but it was not enough for her to make some time for me. She sounds like a litte kid when she speaks and my natural instict was to give her some guidance (as I always do with all my guy friends or whoever else acts stupid) but it all backfired on me.
We went out once...kissed and that was the end of the story. I was really into her at some point I dont' even remember. All I can say is that the whole thing was pretty shitty. ON the phone she sounds like a 13 year old HS ghetto girl...which I dispair alot, I'm out of that age and I don't listen "to dem niggas on BET" anymore but she appearently does, she is a 20 year old white caucausian rapper...she writes freestyles wow and on top of that she is nerdy with a 3.75 GPA. But she is pretty good looking with a pretty casual dress style. (in other words she doesn't really dress like that or acts like that in general public) I could not figuere this chick out at all. I gave up completely. Sometimes I feel very inferior in her presence and that feeling kills me. I wouldn't necessarly say that she hurt me because I knew she would not get too deep involved with me therefore I made sure not get too emotional with her either.
She is still in my class sitting right next to me, for the past 4 lectures or so I haven't even talked to her because I feel everything I say will be not good enough for her. Sometime i just stop and think about why I'm so into her, what is it about her that drives me nuts? Its certainly not her personality cuz that bitch stinks! I do not know what I'm going to do with her, she seems to be very busy with school work and all...and on the other side my girl jenna is making some big progress in impressing me big time. I had a great time last nite, she is sooo good to me. She is my medicine for stress, I feel like I could go to her for anything and she would help and share some love. I cannot say that about lots of other chicks I had in the past. She texts me more than I can send back to her LOL (I love that stuff). Plus all her messages are love related somehow. She wants me to marry her someday, she wants me to move to gainsville with her to go to med school and we been dating for a little over 2 weeks. I think she is a keeper because she is soo true, lonely and trustworthy-exactly what I need right now cuz thats kind of what I am lol. More and more she is gaining my trust with every date we have, I feel like she is getting closer and closer. All her friends are gay and she even told me once that she is so happy to have a "real man" in her life. I have her where I could do anything with her but I will stay true to her...for now.