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okay...so i'm sure you are all sick of hearing it--but with all the shit i seem to be facing...i try so hard to focus on the little moments that spark my happiness. the little moments that make each day worth it.
recent little moments:
TOWER crew going out to Ale House on Valentine's Day. I was worried--i thought i would spend the day moaping, and i didn't want that. Thanks to Jared and Sarah, all three of us worked open to close (11 hours) and then spent the rest of the night at the Ale House...pigging out on appetizers, playing pool, and laughing like nothing else. It turned out to be a good day after all.
Talking to Peloke and Al last night. I can't wait for them to come visit. I really need that escape. It can't come fast enough.
Being able to talk to my Big. He put's up with more of my shit than he should ever have to. I will never be able to thank him enough for that. After having a rough day today--he was able to remind me that i do have options to look into. If nothing else, he is always able to remind me that someone cares.
My Eta Sigma Brothers. See, down here they have music rehearsal. They practice our music. And let me tell you--i always feel like i'm sucking out. They do things differently (and although that's perfectly okay), it's really hard for me to change what i've sung for so long. After feeling like a big tool through the whole thing--we were able to form our circle and sing the hymn...i felt connected again and remembered why i will always love ALL of my brothers so much. No matter what happens in the future (and it's tossing and turning faster than I can handle it)--i have people looking out for me (even if it is just to yell at the waiter who never brought me my food at steak & shake...thanks guys). for those two minutes, i was again on top of the world.
And that is the end for now. Thanks to everyone who's been there to help me. I love you all.
Steph
recent little moments:
TOWER crew going out to Ale House on Valentine's Day. I was worried--i thought i would spend the day moaping, and i didn't want that. Thanks to Jared and Sarah, all three of us worked open to close (11 hours) and then spent the rest of the night at the Ale House...pigging out on appetizers, playing pool, and laughing like nothing else. It turned out to be a good day after all.
Talking to Peloke and Al last night. I can't wait for them to come visit. I really need that escape. It can't come fast enough.
Being able to talk to my Big. He put's up with more of my shit than he should ever have to. I will never be able to thank him enough for that. After having a rough day today--he was able to remind me that i do have options to look into. If nothing else, he is always able to remind me that someone cares.
My Eta Sigma Brothers. See, down here they have music rehearsal. They practice our music. And let me tell you--i always feel like i'm sucking out. They do things differently (and although that's perfectly okay), it's really hard for me to change what i've sung for so long. After feeling like a big tool through the whole thing--we were able to form our circle and sing the hymn...i felt connected again and remembered why i will always love ALL of my brothers so much. No matter what happens in the future (and it's tossing and turning faster than I can handle it)--i have people looking out for me (even if it is just to yell at the waiter who never brought me my food at steak & shake...thanks guys). for those two minutes, i was again on top of the world.
And that is the end for now. Thanks to everyone who's been there to help me. I love you all.
Steph