have you ever shivered so hard you screamed?

[om_mantra]

if you don't believe that i'm sick because you haven't seen me, and you notice that i'm writing in my live journal instead of being passed out cold, then you'd better believe that i'm writing only to distract myself from all kinds of unpleasantness. it's been a really long time since i've had a fever this high. i was just lying in bed for what seemed to be hours, but must've only been ten minutes or so. focusing on my breath, breathing in clean cool air, and out hot infected air. then you open your eyes and realize that everything is blury and that you'd better cool off becuase you can't go to a doctor. the worst part about taking a cold shower to cool down a rampant fever is knowing that you'll probably have to do it again in a few hours. so many goose bumps.

at least i finished work. even on a though night. i will never let someone else do my work or take my responsibility when i'm still physically able. especially when the work is for friends. friendships are kind of like rope, and i never cut my end.

shaking too much to keep typing now. don't worry, marguerite is coming over to take care of me. sleep better than i do. sorry to rant.