Emotionally Unstable...
The cracks of my heart have broken and now like a flood my emotion pours over my heart throwing me into a pit of hatred and disdain...
This was the worst week of my life...On wednesday one of the older girls, she's like my sister, I've known her for 5 years cut her foot on the main drain at the bottom of the pool and tore off half the skin on her foot. Of course, since I'm a lifeguard I have to freakin' do first aid and shit (SO GROSS) I was about to throw up it was so disgusting! Then on Thursday there was a fiasco in the pool involving like 10 KIDS!!! Freaking someone pulled a girl's bathing suit bottom down (she was wearing a 2 piece) and then she took revenge on the guy that she thought did it and then like 10 people got involved and they were pulling each other's pants down and it was really retarded!!! I mean WHO DOES THAT??? Then that same day when I was driving home I got in a car accident and dented my hood and scraped my front bumper! I was bawling in my car half the time then tonight I found out I can't go to beach week cause my dad's conference is fucking on the same week! WTF!!!! That is so freakin' retarded!!! I'm sick of things controling my life!!! I'm almost 18 years old! I'm so sick of all of this I freakin' just want to die right now! I'm so frustrated with everything! I miss Blake and I still wish we were together and this really sucks!!!
I'm seriously uncapable of handling my emotions! I mean all of that bad stuff I can't have it piled on like that or I will go insane! It's enough to drive one up the wall! I'm sick of guys, I'm sick of life, I'm sick of all these things that control my life and I seriously just want to kill someone right now! This is so freakin' gay! I'm sick. I'm bipolar.
I'm gunna go punch a wall, that is if anyone cares...
This was the worst week of my life...On wednesday one of the older girls, she's like my sister, I've known her for 5 years cut her foot on the main drain at the bottom of the pool and tore off half the skin on her foot. Of course, since I'm a lifeguard I have to freakin' do first aid and shit (SO GROSS) I was about to throw up it was so disgusting! Then on Thursday there was a fiasco in the pool involving like 10 KIDS!!! Freaking someone pulled a girl's bathing suit bottom down (she was wearing a 2 piece) and then she took revenge on the guy that she thought did it and then like 10 people got involved and they were pulling each other's pants down and it was really retarded!!! I mean WHO DOES THAT??? Then that same day when I was driving home I got in a car accident and dented my hood and scraped my front bumper! I was bawling in my car half the time then tonight I found out I can't go to beach week cause my dad's conference is fucking on the same week! WTF!!!! That is so freakin' retarded!!! I'm sick of things controling my life!!! I'm almost 18 years old! I'm so sick of all of this I freakin' just want to die right now! I'm so frustrated with everything! I miss Blake and I still wish we were together and this really sucks!!!
I'm seriously uncapable of handling my emotions! I mean all of that bad stuff I can't have it piled on like that or I will go insane! It's enough to drive one up the wall! I'm sick of guys, I'm sick of life, I'm sick of all these things that control my life and I seriously just want to kill someone right now! This is so freakin' gay! I'm sick. I'm bipolar.
I'm gunna go punch a wall, that is if anyone cares...