It's been awhile...
I haven't posted in awhile. So I am posting. Right now I am a B+ on a scale of F being dead in a ditch to A+ being moksha. My thoughts and feelings are pretty bipolar these days...yet at the same time I sometimes feel like I'm coasting through life without experiencing any strong emotion at all. Sometimes I enjoy the sadness and the quiet, because feeling sad is better than not feeling anything. It's not despair, but sort of a humbling sadness, as I think about my life and how much is ahead of me and how uncertain everything is.
I don't think I am very good at seeing the good in people. I tend to categorize people. And judge them. It is a bad habit.
It's hard to know how to make progress without knowing what direction to go in or what your reasons are for what you do. It's hard to figure out what to believe, why to believe it, and how to believe it. It's hard to know the difference between following good advice and living by other people's standards. Who is right? We all think we are right. We can't all be right.
Despite all these big questions, it's little pointless stupid things that bring me down these days. And only because I let them.
B+ is pretty good. I am dating Aven Rose and that is going well. It is a source of happiness in my life, and I think I am actively trying to keep it that way and keep it healthy.
Y'all should listen to Damien Rice's new cd. Stellar.
I don't think I am very good at seeing the good in people. I tend to categorize people. And judge them. It is a bad habit.
It's hard to know how to make progress without knowing what direction to go in or what your reasons are for what you do. It's hard to figure out what to believe, why to believe it, and how to believe it. It's hard to know the difference between following good advice and living by other people's standards. Who is right? We all think we are right. We can't all be right.
Despite all these big questions, it's little pointless stupid things that bring me down these days. And only because I let them.
B+ is pretty good. I am dating Aven Rose and that is going well. It is a source of happiness in my life, and I think I am actively trying to keep it that way and keep it healthy.
Y'all should listen to Damien Rice's new cd. Stellar.