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i had a really interesting and horrible conversation with someone the other night.
my mind is reeling over everything i said;
and yet again, i'm faced with the thought that this isn't over.
i've gone back to the little milestones -
the days when i reach 5:30pm and say to myself,
"i haven't thought about you at all today."
and since this is regarding a boy,
i will stop writing here,
go to sleep,
and pray for some resolution.
i don't want to think about you at all today.