The end and the beginning.
My mother calls us asking if we want to come over and eat dinner and I say sure, what time, she says 7, I ask if theres gonna be smoking, she says "Upstairs" I say no outside, she says no, I say fine we arent coming over and she says "We'll see what Harry has to say about it" I said "I don't give a fuck what harry has to say" Harry calls back in a bit saying it's fine he understands and they will smoke outside. All good. We get over there, dinner was hell because they kept bringing up shit about smoking and meat eating and I kept speaking my mind and plainly said "If anyone so much as feeds him the tinyest meat they will never see him again". not a word was said. Me and my brother and misty and dev run home and herb puts together our curio cabinet that he was gonna do for us, we take him back over to my mothers so she can give him a ride home.
So I (Matt) walk in there to drop Herb off and give my mother the courtesy of telling her that if she wants to see Devin and say goodbye to him and Harry stands up and says "We need to have a talk, sit down" And I don't sit down of course, knowing what's coming. "About what?" I say, and he ends up in the same room as me, dining room. "Just sit down because we really need to talk" he goes. "No, tell me what this is about" I said!. He replies, rather loudly and with a shaking finger in my direction. Please keep in mind this is all in loud yelling and shoving and slamming against walls is going in from now on "It's about how you treat your mother like a piece of shit!"
Well this crosses me the wrong way, noone talkes to me in this tone, nor has ever had the nerve to. "Me and my mother are our fucking business,not yours so stay the fuck out of it!" I make my move past him to go to the entry to the lobbyish area to get to the door outside. He grabs me real hardlike and shoves me back into the dining room table. "You had best let me fucking go, don't fucking touch me!" We get into a lock of strength and arms and such and I'm pushing and he's pushing and I say "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY, YOU ARENT MY FUCKING FATHER AND I WONT TAKE THIS SHIT FROM YOU!" He replies in the same yell "YOU'RE DAMN RIGHT I'M NOT YOUR FATHER" And we shove around some more, I push real hard to the side and almost get through to the lobbyish area and he grabs me by the throat, very hard, I can't breath, he picks me a few inches off the ground and lets go. I shove him back to the door that leads outside (We are now in the lobbyish area, mom is standing at doorway to dining room. My mother comes in and says whilst crying and yelling "You deserve this! It had to come to this you wouldnt listen to us!" I practically spit at her feet and let out a steam of inaudible obscenities. He comes back with a bunch of shit regaurding how I condemn my mother because she smokes and says "If you ever try to tell me to smoke in my fucking house again I'll kick your ass" and I say "Fine, you can smoke all you fucking want but you'll never see my son over here again" And he comes back with "Don't you fucking play that pawn shit with me" And I retort with how it's MY kid and his lungs and health are mine to deal with and that if he tries to tell me how to fucking raise my child they have another thing coming, and repeating that it's my child and I'll do with him what I will and my doom is his law, whatever fucking happens they will not tell me how to raise my child and that it's MINE and my OWN!!! He comes back in the middle of while I"m speaking all this with shit about how he'll smoke wherever he wants and that I'd better get shoes for him, at that I told him to fuck off and that I"d get him what I want whenever I deemed necessary. Then I shove past him and my brother, seeing my rage and unable to contain his own, steps in and tells harry to step back and let me out. Harry tries to make a grab at me through Herb and he grabs harrys hand and pins him against the wall and says to let me go, you don't want to do this. I get to the door and herb assumes that I'm ready to get out but the door was locked! Harry had locked it when he got in there. Harry says "Fine get the fuck out of my house" And I said I fucking will you dirt ass fucker, and he shoves me into the door with my face and I elbow him in his stomache and Herb steps back in and pins him, I get outside and as I'm leaving I look both of them dead in the eye and yell "You will never have the pleasure of seeing my son ever again" And harry yells back FINE!. So I leave, Herb follows to the porch and I"m already outside and harrys yelling shit and he stops because herb points a finger at mom and says to her "How dare you! You have no idea, you'll never see him again! You know better, I can't believe you'd do this and let this happen! You have no right and niether does he!" He yells to me as I'm rushing to the car if I could take him home so I run back up open the door and wave my hand and say "Come on Herbie" and Cinnamin (His dog) comes out and he says something else to her quietly that I couldt hear and leaves and I run up to the car rather fucking pissed and kick it and punch the window and scream. Harry comes out yelling some more shit and I gave him the finger and said "Fuck off both of you! Never will you see my son again!" and get in the car and start fucking going insane, kicking the shit out of the interior, almost ripping the dash out from kicking it so hard, and Misty goes to pull away and Herb's in the car and we take off.
Herb says that he couldnt believe that Harry had the nerve or that that bitch of a other would have the nerve to let it happen. He was just stumped and said I was completely right and it was all fucked up. I said he had no right to speak to me, noone does, noone ever talks to me like that and noone ever will, my own dad wouldnt do this shit to me. I'm crying in spurts here and there and when we finally get over there I jump out of the car and run over to the other side and hug my brother like I've never hugged him before, we arent emotional people, I hugged him with all my heart and he hugged me back. It was fucking beautiful, because neither of us hug each other ever. He said "I'm here for you anything you need man" And I, in tears and unable to speak "You are my only family man, my only family" and he repeats what he said, and I hug him again and cry on his shoulder for a few brief seconds. That was that. I head home. I feel betrayed, happy, disgusted, appauled, everything at once. I'm so glad this happened, as I sit here with tears in my eyes I'm happy it happened. Now I won't feel guilty writing her off. I got alot off my chest. That era of my life is over. Time to start with freshness and live a life of cleanliness, with a normal family. Fuck them all. It's over.
So I (Matt) walk in there to drop Herb off and give my mother the courtesy of telling her that if she wants to see Devin and say goodbye to him and Harry stands up and says "We need to have a talk, sit down" And I don't sit down of course, knowing what's coming. "About what?" I say, and he ends up in the same room as me, dining room. "Just sit down because we really need to talk" he goes. "No, tell me what this is about" I said!. He replies, rather loudly and with a shaking finger in my direction. Please keep in mind this is all in loud yelling and shoving and slamming against walls is going in from now on "It's about how you treat your mother like a piece of shit!"
Well this crosses me the wrong way, noone talkes to me in this tone, nor has ever had the nerve to. "Me and my mother are our fucking business,not yours so stay the fuck out of it!" I make my move past him to go to the entry to the lobbyish area to get to the door outside. He grabs me real hardlike and shoves me back into the dining room table. "You had best let me fucking go, don't fucking touch me!" We get into a lock of strength and arms and such and I'm pushing and he's pushing and I say "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY, YOU ARENT MY FUCKING FATHER AND I WONT TAKE THIS SHIT FROM YOU!" He replies in the same yell "YOU'RE DAMN RIGHT I'M NOT YOUR FATHER" And we shove around some more, I push real hard to the side and almost get through to the lobbyish area and he grabs me by the throat, very hard, I can't breath, he picks me a few inches off the ground and lets go. I shove him back to the door that leads outside (We are now in the lobbyish area, mom is standing at doorway to dining room. My mother comes in and says whilst crying and yelling "You deserve this! It had to come to this you wouldnt listen to us!" I practically spit at her feet and let out a steam of inaudible obscenities. He comes back with a bunch of shit regaurding how I condemn my mother because she smokes and says "If you ever try to tell me to smoke in my fucking house again I'll kick your ass" and I say "Fine, you can smoke all you fucking want but you'll never see my son over here again" And he comes back with "Don't you fucking play that pawn shit with me" And I retort with how it's MY kid and his lungs and health are mine to deal with and that if he tries to tell me how to fucking raise my child they have another thing coming, and repeating that it's my child and I'll do with him what I will and my doom is his law, whatever fucking happens they will not tell me how to raise my child and that it's MINE and my OWN!!! He comes back in the middle of while I"m speaking all this with shit about how he'll smoke wherever he wants and that I'd better get shoes for him, at that I told him to fuck off and that I"d get him what I want whenever I deemed necessary. Then I shove past him and my brother, seeing my rage and unable to contain his own, steps in and tells harry to step back and let me out. Harry tries to make a grab at me through Herb and he grabs harrys hand and pins him against the wall and says to let me go, you don't want to do this. I get to the door and herb assumes that I'm ready to get out but the door was locked! Harry had locked it when he got in there. Harry says "Fine get the fuck out of my house" And I said I fucking will you dirt ass fucker, and he shoves me into the door with my face and I elbow him in his stomache and Herb steps back in and pins him, I get outside and as I'm leaving I look both of them dead in the eye and yell "You will never have the pleasure of seeing my son ever again" And harry yells back FINE!. So I leave, Herb follows to the porch and I"m already outside and harrys yelling shit and he stops because herb points a finger at mom and says to her "How dare you! You have no idea, you'll never see him again! You know better, I can't believe you'd do this and let this happen! You have no right and niether does he!" He yells to me as I'm rushing to the car if I could take him home so I run back up open the door and wave my hand and say "Come on Herbie" and Cinnamin (His dog) comes out and he says something else to her quietly that I couldt hear and leaves and I run up to the car rather fucking pissed and kick it and punch the window and scream. Harry comes out yelling some more shit and I gave him the finger and said "Fuck off both of you! Never will you see my son again!" and get in the car and start fucking going insane, kicking the shit out of the interior, almost ripping the dash out from kicking it so hard, and Misty goes to pull away and Herb's in the car and we take off.
Herb says that he couldnt believe that Harry had the nerve or that that bitch of a other would have the nerve to let it happen. He was just stumped and said I was completely right and it was all fucked up. I said he had no right to speak to me, noone does, noone ever talks to me like that and noone ever will, my own dad wouldnt do this shit to me. I'm crying in spurts here and there and when we finally get over there I jump out of the car and run over to the other side and hug my brother like I've never hugged him before, we arent emotional people, I hugged him with all my heart and he hugged me back. It was fucking beautiful, because neither of us hug each other ever. He said "I'm here for you anything you need man" And I, in tears and unable to speak "You are my only family man, my only family" and he repeats what he said, and I hug him again and cry on his shoulder for a few brief seconds. That was that. I head home. I feel betrayed, happy, disgusted, appauled, everything at once. I'm so glad this happened, as I sit here with tears in my eyes I'm happy it happened. Now I won't feel guilty writing her off. I got alot off my chest. That era of my life is over. Time to start with freshness and live a life of cleanliness, with a normal family. Fuck them all. It's over.