i dont know what to call this

[olorin_narya]

i fucking hate this, y the fuck do things like this keep happening, people think they're helping me but in actuality they're damn not!!! i fucking hate counselors, they've completely fucked up my life. damnit. i cant fucking cry anymore, i dont even know who the fuck i am. its pointless to be writing all of this down cuz no one ever fucking reads this or cares, but im gonna write it anyway. i watched fotr and everytime i watch that movie i cry bout 30 minutes of it. i didnt cry once. damnit. i dont know if any of my emotions r real anymore, if im ever gonna be cry again, i dont know anything. nothing got better, it just got worse.

i saw 50 first dates, it was awesome. im sure everyone else hated it, but i thought it was hilarious.