i haven't posted in over a year...
soooo my life in the brief:
i graduate in 39 days. and i'm ready for it. there are people i'm really going to miss... but this year's been really rough. lots of drama on the team. depression like i've never really felt before. lots of anger. people changing (including myself). being a leader on team where everyone wants different things. jealousy. confusion. but i've learned a lot. and i'm really happy right now. i get to play frisbee. i try to shrug off the people that bother me. i'm more confused than i've been in a long time about who i am since i can't really define myself in terms of the team anymore. but i guess that's part of the next step in my life.
speaking of next step, i'm going to alaska for 5 months to do trail restoration. i leave june 1. i end oct 31. i'm going to be living in a tent. and doing manual labor. in possibly one of the most beautiful places in the world. i'm very excited. and afterwards i have a lot of options. possibly back to london. possibly to the dominican republic. possibly to africa. possibly home. we'll see!
life can be hard. people are confusing. but we only have one life to live, and it's pretty fucking amazing.
...i'd rather regret things i've done than to regret not doing something...
i graduate in 39 days. and i'm ready for it. there are people i'm really going to miss... but this year's been really rough. lots of drama on the team. depression like i've never really felt before. lots of anger. people changing (including myself). being a leader on team where everyone wants different things. jealousy. confusion. but i've learned a lot. and i'm really happy right now. i get to play frisbee. i try to shrug off the people that bother me. i'm more confused than i've been in a long time about who i am since i can't really define myself in terms of the team anymore. but i guess that's part of the next step in my life.
speaking of next step, i'm going to alaska for 5 months to do trail restoration. i leave june 1. i end oct 31. i'm going to be living in a tent. and doing manual labor. in possibly one of the most beautiful places in the world. i'm very excited. and afterwards i have a lot of options. possibly back to london. possibly to the dominican republic. possibly to africa. possibly home. we'll see!
life can be hard. people are confusing. but we only have one life to live, and it's pretty fucking amazing.
...i'd rather regret things i've done than to regret not doing something...