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Firstly, i hate studying, secondly, i hate studying. The more i try to learn about expanding opcodes and the memory construction of a penium 2 chip, the more i realise, i want to be a web designer, i couldn't give a shit about how the CPU pulls data in from teh main cache or how a bus is controlled. I want to design websites, 'deploy web applications', ugh, and my exam's tommorrow.
I will fail, that's not some pre-exam nerve crap, that's honest truth. When i went into my SACE exams (end of high school, uni entrance stuff) i was in full realisation about my chances, and i have been ever since. I've never been one to worry about 'the exam', but this time, i have no idea what i'm doing and what's more scary is that i couldn't care less. At least i'm finally coming to some concrete idea about what i want to do next year, but alas, with that realisation, i'm beginning to think 'we'll what about in 5 years'.
The good news is, bron's behind me. She told me that she'll support any decision i make. Originally i could see the fear she had about me not doing uni was based on some pre-conceptions that i didn't know what i was doing (hell, i didn't) but i think now she understands that i can't do it.
Next friday i'm free ..
I will fail, that's not some pre-exam nerve crap, that's honest truth. When i went into my SACE exams (end of high school, uni entrance stuff) i was in full realisation about my chances, and i have been ever since. I've never been one to worry about 'the exam', but this time, i have no idea what i'm doing and what's more scary is that i couldn't care less. At least i'm finally coming to some concrete idea about what i want to do next year, but alas, with that realisation, i'm beginning to think 'we'll what about in 5 years'.
The good news is, bron's behind me. She told me that she'll support any decision i make. Originally i could see the fear she had about me not doing uni was based on some pre-conceptions that i didn't know what i was doing (hell, i didn't) but i think now she understands that i can't do it.
Next friday i'm free ..