Freedom!! My last class was on Saturday and I have been soooo enjoying my free unstressful time. I got a new tattoo on Saturday, it was 2 hours of pain, but I managed surprinsingly well. The worst was the last 30 minutes. My skin was so raw and tender from over an hour of needle pounding, that the very end was extremely difficult. Nevertheless it is done, I got 2 owls (soul mates).. to signify my grandparents on my right shoulder, my right hand side, a permanent, endearing, unforgettable part of me..
Also had dinner at Cheesecake and then watched Sherlock Holmes. It was great! I think the 1st one was better, but this one was still good nonetheless.
Sunday we went to Players and watched football all morning until 4ish. It was a great day for football! Interesting games all around. Watched the Charger game at home since I had a turkey I wanted to bake that night. I made a turkey Thanksgiving dinner for no reason other than i felt like it :)
It looks like W. is officially leaving right ater New Years. He flies out to the midwest for training. There is no set come back date. It can take 3 weeks or much much longer. He might not come back at all. They might keep him there until he is approved to go overseas.
I don't really know how I will deal with it. As of now I am calm, content, and happy for him. He is getting what he has worked hard for the last half of this year. I am proud of him for growing the fuck up this year, for cutting all ties with the low life drunkard ass friends he used to work and be surrounded with. Those people disgust him now and he is dissapointed in himself for wasting years of his life in that rut when he could have been doing something important.
Also our relationship has matured so much this year, and moved passed a physical and unhealthy dependency. I don't look at it as- 'oh I'm losing my boyfriend' or 'oh I'm losing the love of my life' no I don't see him that way anymore. Now I feel, and I view it as I am losing my bestfriend, my other half, my confidant, the one person I have really relied on to make me laugh, to feel safe at night, and for help when the whole world is stressing me out.
I am unusually calm about everything and, sad but in a weird way also relieved that I will have my old independent life back.
We are going to have fun these last 2 weeks though and really just enjoy each other, since we don't know when he will be back in San Diego.
Christmas is creeping up and I'm not done yet! I still have to buy for Lani and my sister, and get all the ingredients I need for Christmas dinner. I'm excited though. I bought myself a Christmas present so I really don't want or need anything. I got myself a nice purty new laptop. It has 4GB and a 500SATA. My current laptop only has 2GB. It's not shipping for another week, but I'm excited.
Oh and in these new unteethered free minutes I have, I have stumbled upon the show "basketball wives" via hulu on my Roku. It is so dramatic and awkwardly agressive that I actualy feel myself tense up on certain scenes... but stilll..the drama is addictive and I guess my brain is aching for some mindless bullshit for a bit.
Speaking of shows, that reminds me, I watched PBS's masterpiece theater rendition of Wuthering Heights last week. Omg it was so good! I have read the book twice now but it made me pick it up off my book shelf and start to read it a third time. I LOVE the Heathcliff/Katherine tumultous love affair. It is so beautifully written too. Novels of today's world lack that eloquence, descriptive narrative and heaviness.
Also got into the British series "Downton Abbey" and I am HOOKED! British TV apparently rocks, especially when they do drama period peices.
ok well back to my drama tv.
talk laters...