suck.
i'm definately not moving to chicago now. which sucks. a lot. i was all excited and i was supposed to move in like a week, and now i don't get to. major bummer. also, my lease here is up at the end of february, so now i have to rush to find somewhere else to live. which also sucks. a lot. so i looked through the newspaper today and called on a bunch of studio apartments and stuff. hopefully i can find something not awful fairly quickly. i sort of like the idea of living on my own and not sharing space with anybody. i mean, i love my roomie now and it's not that i don't like living with her. i do. but there's just something cool about being able to put things where ever you want and living on your own and everything. so i hope i can find something reasonably affordable on my own. we'll see...
this whole columbia thing has really got me down. a week ago i had a place to live next month, an exciting move to effing chicago, and i was a step closer to getting a degree and becoming more ...whatever. accomplished or adult-like or whatev. i had a plan, and a future. and now i have crap. my lease at my current (and sucky) apartment is up in 28 days, i work at a lame sucky restaurant, and that's all i have going for me. before, it was okay that i had a stupid job, cuz it was just to last me until i moved. but now it's lame and pathetic and so not fitting for the stage of life i feel like i should have been in by now. so i'm pretty bummed about the whole thing and basically life in general right now, as i feel like i have no focus or anything. it sucks. a lot.
this whole columbia thing has really got me down. a week ago i had a place to live next month, an exciting move to effing chicago, and i was a step closer to getting a degree and becoming more ...whatever. accomplished or adult-like or whatev. i had a plan, and a future. and now i have crap. my lease at my current (and sucky) apartment is up in 28 days, i work at a lame sucky restaurant, and that's all i have going for me. before, it was okay that i had a stupid job, cuz it was just to last me until i moved. but now it's lame and pathetic and so not fitting for the stage of life i feel like i should have been in by now. so i'm pretty bummed about the whole thing and basically life in general right now, as i feel like i have no focus or anything. it sucks. a lot.