feeling revidalized
reborn. i really feel like being in bed and just balling for some reason. yet i know i can't and i won't. your all in my head. never can seem to get you out. feel like im going crazy, and i just want to throw up because of how this is. they say ill have a new catch, but it will never be like you. i just wanted to ask you things, but i know you probably won't answer. all these questions left unanswered. i thought you liked me, i really did, but now everything went down the drain, and it was all just a lie. i don't know why i thought you would call. and i still don't think you ever will. just want to hear that sweet voice one more time, yet i know it will lead me to wanting more of it. don't know why. they tell me you don't even deserve me, and that i'm too good for you. why is that so? why are you letting me go? i don't think im too good, im not good enough for anyone. i guess until i leave them, cuz the guy i loved, realized he never knew what he had until he lost it. so i guess when we were together everything he said was a lie. ahh it makes me so mad. want to start most things over. you, him and all the lies i told my parents. things i should have never done. i just wish the rain would fall to wipe me clean. to become reborn. cuz i want to be he bestfriend again, and i just want you to be my stranger. go back to how they were. yet im glad i have all my friends in my life. you guys keep me holding on, and to keep living life with you. i love you all. you mean everything to me. don't know what id do with you, or my family. spring break was fun. and im glad i got to share it with you.