UPdate: i'm tired and sick
what's with the weather? is this normal? or do i always get this pissed off when it snows in april, then forget the next year that it always does this.. ?? anyway poop on snow.
the only thing i have to be happy about right now is that it's sunday and it's my last day of work before the "weekend".
my band broke up, i think i wrote that before.. anyway without that little thing to think about, my free time has become kind of a depressing wasteland.. i don't know what to do with myself. i've forgotten what i used to do with free time.. i usually write music, record it.. do things.. but now i'm just meh.. i've taken to drinking even more than i used to. this is just unreal. the impact on my health has already manifested in huge dark circles under my eyes, a continuous bad temper, and 20 extra pounds of serious beer belly. i keep eating creton (a disgusting quebecois salted pork pate) to replenish the sodium lost from sweating, drinking, and crying.
enough about being totally depressed.
i'm considering my options.. they are few.. what to do next? we'll seeeeeeeeee.... all i know is that there's not much giong on for me here in montreal, and since i feel homesick all the time, and lonely all the time, and i've started to hate montreal.. i don't know what to do next. but maybe staying here another year is not wise? fuck it.
i'm going to drink coffee now.
the only thing i have to be happy about right now is that it's sunday and it's my last day of work before the "weekend".
my band broke up, i think i wrote that before.. anyway without that little thing to think about, my free time has become kind of a depressing wasteland.. i don't know what to do with myself. i've forgotten what i used to do with free time.. i usually write music, record it.. do things.. but now i'm just meh.. i've taken to drinking even more than i used to. this is just unreal. the impact on my health has already manifested in huge dark circles under my eyes, a continuous bad temper, and 20 extra pounds of serious beer belly. i keep eating creton (a disgusting quebecois salted pork pate) to replenish the sodium lost from sweating, drinking, and crying.
enough about being totally depressed.
i'm considering my options.. they are few.. what to do next? we'll seeeeeeeeee.... all i know is that there's not much giong on for me here in montreal, and since i feel homesick all the time, and lonely all the time, and i've started to hate montreal.. i don't know what to do next. but maybe staying here another year is not wise? fuck it.
i'm going to drink coffee now.