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[oliphont]

I am feeling super sad.  Haven't made it to a whole meeting in more than a week, might have something to do with it.  But also I just got a new job where I get to have more control, but it's more responsibility and I keep wanting to change my plans to meet my poor expectations of myself.  Also this means I will be stuck here for a whole year.  Which isn't such a terrible thing, I guess I just want the freedom to run away and explore and live life more fully than I feel I am doing now.  But West is here.  And my AA "community", even though I feel far away from everybody.

This music I am listening to isn't helping these melancholy feelings either.  I think I just need to get up and go walk dogs.