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Summer time is the busiest time. Except for right now. So I think there is something wrong with the website right now, btu if I don't update at this moment I will forget and not come back for another month. Everything is kind of boring and wonderful and confusing and unnacceptable and totally perfect at this point in my life. I talked to Adair last night and that was lovely. She's in San Fran and I miss her dearly. I'm also totally jealous of her life right now, even though it isn't particularly glamorous. But just to work and make money to live and figure out life and have lots of time to read books sounds nice. West and I are celebrating our anniversary on the 16th by going to the beach and staying in a hotel for two nights. I have never been so fucking happy in a relationship. I have never known a love so pure and consistent and beautiful. And the sex is sort of mind blowing. Especially when I can be really loud. I always find that I am shaking afterwards. Plans for moving out are moving forward. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I've been saying things for years about how I'm gonna move out or do this and that, but nothing ever actually happens because I'm a chicken shit. Maybe this time it will be different because I have wonderful ladies who are in this with me. Even though nothing truly exceptional has happened, I really feel like sobriety get better and better every year. I find more strength and serenity within me to push forward. I feel more connected to every living thing surrounding me. I am confident that everything will be okay. I may not get what I want, but Gaia's will for me is better than all that. I think I'm done for now. I'll come back in another month.