maybe i should name my daughter, Demeter.....
well, that's one of the random things that pop in my head while brushing my teeth.
you know what else? that a livejournal entry is long overdue.
what's new with me?
well first off, the brasilian decor of my livejournal isn't just for kicks, it is confirmed - we are going to brasil!! it's been 10 years since we've last gone. So I'm going with mom, we're leaving this wednesday the 27th and not coming back until August 25th... so you guys will have to just sit tight unless i can hook myself up with a computer for at least a half hour. Don't be fooled tho... I'm not gonna be lounging on the beaches of bahia or partying it up in Rio..... rather, i'm gonna be chillin as company for my mom who is making her rounds to visit her sisters and brother and friends for a possible last time (my mom's 57, her brother and sisters are between their early to late 60's.). I don't mind, i like travelling anyway, and it's a nice opportunity to meet family i barely know and practice my portuguese which is in dire need of some practice after being in England apart from my family for so long. And... who knows. maybe i'll hang out with some unknown cousins who are around my age or a little older. either way, it's gonna be cool.
so i've been home for exactly 2 weeks.... in that time i've basically hung out at home and gone out a couple times to hang with my girlfriends. First was to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Aiesha and also to look at the new science building at Peddie (my high school).... and since they installed funky solar panels on it it looks like a warehouse/airport terminal. i don't like it, but... what can you do. I also hung out just with Aiesha this past Friday for cheesecake at the Slow Down Cafe and cosmic bowling, where we got ripped off by the sales guy who didn't properly explain this "buy one get one free" thing he suckered us into, and also bowled on a lane next to these tipsy old white guys, among which one of them was named Esteban and he enjoyed dancing a lot. Needless to say, it was fun - aside from getting frustrated on how much i suck at bowling. I also did get to hang out with not only Ice but the Tufts sisters, who are always hilarious and awesome!! We went dinering and dunkin donutsing. Lots of conversations about sex and love and sex and friendship and sex and school and sex and family and sex and food and sex and life and sex and sex. Oh yeah, and sex too. Always a good time and a laugh with them :P
Speakin of sex.... I miss Dan. I can't believe it's been over 2 weeks without him. We've continued to email and IM almost daily, he's doing alright. He leaves to visit a friend in Japan for 3 weeks the day before I leave for Brasil. So at least we'll both be occupied at the same time and it won't be like one or the other is sitting at home without being able to talk to the other (well, dan will for a week since he arrives home before i do). We still say "xoxox" at the end of all our emails and conversations, we still have listed "seeing someone" on our OKCupid profiles, and we still said "I love you" at the end of our last conversation before travelling that we had today.... though we're not officially together. But somehow, we're still not ready to let go just yet.
To recap our last few days together, I hung out with him in Sandbach, spent time with him, his family, and his friends. Was quite nice, visited North Wales and that was gorgeous (pictures on the album). Because of the bombings, we postponed going to london until the day before my departure. The hotel was incredibly small but incredibly friendly. Comfortable and clean. We ate a GORGEOUS dinner at The Savoy Grill.... I ate this ravioli, this tail of monkfish, and this valhrona chocolate dessert, dan had this quail and pigeon thing, this lamb so nice it melts in your mouth, and a chocolate mint cake dessert for dinner. The waiters all wore suits and spoke in french accents and we got these free appetizers and "palate cleansing sorbet".... was tré nice. The day after Dan and I exchanged little going away stuffs and both got our crying out of the way as we said our more important heartfelt goodbye stuff. After that, we just walked around London a bit, relaxed at Jubilee Gardens behind the London Eye, until it was time to go (gorgeous pictures also at the photo album). At the airport... we checked in my bags, ate some Burger King, and got ready for me to go....
This is where the big deal comes in. As I walked away, I mouthed to him "I love you", to which he replied "I know".... 1) this isn't the big deal yet, because i've told him before that I love him a couple times, though he had never been able to say it back (this issue was part of "the talk" back in may, and also has roots in his healing process from his last relationship), and 2) anyone who's seen star wars knows that "I know" is han solo's response to princess leia telling him that she loves him, and vice versa at the end. When dan first said "I know" as a response, i thought "well, he still can't say it back. but that's ok. and also, ha! that's in star wars. i bet he did it on purpose bc we saw it together".... as i walked thru security and was walking towards my gate, having left dan about 3 minutes, i decided to check my british cell phone one last time before leaving. In it was a text from dan saying "I love you too. I can't believe I quoted star wars at you!". This is a HUGE deal. He loves me. And I know him, and he had ample opportunity to say it prematurely or to say it as a fake, but for him he takes love seriously especially after having his heart broken as he has and being previously engaged and being in long term relationships and other stuff from his life. So it's for real - Dan loves me. I have found someone who loves me, and that alone makes my entire stay worthwhile.... saying "i love you" makes everything worthwhile.....
anyway. it's late. and tomorrow i got lots o' packing to do. shall talk to you guys later!
good nite!
love always,
-- olga --
you know what else? that a livejournal entry is long overdue.
what's new with me?
well first off, the brasilian decor of my livejournal isn't just for kicks, it is confirmed - we are going to brasil!! it's been 10 years since we've last gone. So I'm going with mom, we're leaving this wednesday the 27th and not coming back until August 25th... so you guys will have to just sit tight unless i can hook myself up with a computer for at least a half hour. Don't be fooled tho... I'm not gonna be lounging on the beaches of bahia or partying it up in Rio..... rather, i'm gonna be chillin as company for my mom who is making her rounds to visit her sisters and brother and friends for a possible last time (my mom's 57, her brother and sisters are between their early to late 60's.). I don't mind, i like travelling anyway, and it's a nice opportunity to meet family i barely know and practice my portuguese which is in dire need of some practice after being in England apart from my family for so long. And... who knows. maybe i'll hang out with some unknown cousins who are around my age or a little older. either way, it's gonna be cool.
so i've been home for exactly 2 weeks.... in that time i've basically hung out at home and gone out a couple times to hang with my girlfriends. First was to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Aiesha and also to look at the new science building at Peddie (my high school).... and since they installed funky solar panels on it it looks like a warehouse/airport terminal. i don't like it, but... what can you do. I also hung out just with Aiesha this past Friday for cheesecake at the Slow Down Cafe and cosmic bowling, where we got ripped off by the sales guy who didn't properly explain this "buy one get one free" thing he suckered us into, and also bowled on a lane next to these tipsy old white guys, among which one of them was named Esteban and he enjoyed dancing a lot. Needless to say, it was fun - aside from getting frustrated on how much i suck at bowling. I also did get to hang out with not only Ice but the Tufts sisters, who are always hilarious and awesome!! We went dinering and dunkin donutsing. Lots of conversations about sex and love and sex and friendship and sex and school and sex and family and sex and food and sex and life and sex and sex. Oh yeah, and sex too. Always a good time and a laugh with them :P
Speakin of sex.... I miss Dan. I can't believe it's been over 2 weeks without him. We've continued to email and IM almost daily, he's doing alright. He leaves to visit a friend in Japan for 3 weeks the day before I leave for Brasil. So at least we'll both be occupied at the same time and it won't be like one or the other is sitting at home without being able to talk to the other (well, dan will for a week since he arrives home before i do). We still say "xoxox" at the end of all our emails and conversations, we still have listed "seeing someone" on our OKCupid profiles, and we still said "I love you" at the end of our last conversation before travelling that we had today.... though we're not officially together. But somehow, we're still not ready to let go just yet.
To recap our last few days together, I hung out with him in Sandbach, spent time with him, his family, and his friends. Was quite nice, visited North Wales and that was gorgeous (pictures on the album). Because of the bombings, we postponed going to london until the day before my departure. The hotel was incredibly small but incredibly friendly. Comfortable and clean. We ate a GORGEOUS dinner at The Savoy Grill.... I ate this ravioli, this tail of monkfish, and this valhrona chocolate dessert, dan had this quail and pigeon thing, this lamb so nice it melts in your mouth, and a chocolate mint cake dessert for dinner. The waiters all wore suits and spoke in french accents and we got these free appetizers and "palate cleansing sorbet".... was tré nice. The day after Dan and I exchanged little going away stuffs and both got our crying out of the way as we said our more important heartfelt goodbye stuff. After that, we just walked around London a bit, relaxed at Jubilee Gardens behind the London Eye, until it was time to go (gorgeous pictures also at the photo album). At the airport... we checked in my bags, ate some Burger King, and got ready for me to go....
This is where the big deal comes in. As I walked away, I mouthed to him "I love you", to which he replied "I know".... 1) this isn't the big deal yet, because i've told him before that I love him a couple times, though he had never been able to say it back (this issue was part of "the talk" back in may, and also has roots in his healing process from his last relationship), and 2) anyone who's seen star wars knows that "I know" is han solo's response to princess leia telling him that she loves him, and vice versa at the end. When dan first said "I know" as a response, i thought "well, he still can't say it back. but that's ok. and also, ha! that's in star wars. i bet he did it on purpose bc we saw it together".... as i walked thru security and was walking towards my gate, having left dan about 3 minutes, i decided to check my british cell phone one last time before leaving. In it was a text from dan saying "I love you too. I can't believe I quoted star wars at you!". This is a HUGE deal. He loves me. And I know him, and he had ample opportunity to say it prematurely or to say it as a fake, but for him he takes love seriously especially after having his heart broken as he has and being previously engaged and being in long term relationships and other stuff from his life. So it's for real - Dan loves me. I have found someone who loves me, and that alone makes my entire stay worthwhile.... saying "i love you" makes everything worthwhile.....
anyway. it's late. and tomorrow i got lots o' packing to do. shall talk to you guys later!
good nite!
love always,
-- olga --