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Hmph
Well I haven't been on here in a long long while. Why do I only go on Livejournal when I'm feeling down?? Who knows, who knows. So I have a test in two days that I am NOT motivated to study for. Part of the reason why I'm on here. Took a nap today and woke up feeling disoriented. Its one of my roommates' birthday so there are people over watching TV and having cake, and I want to join them but I also feel like I should study. But in the end I'm doing neither. Ugh why am I always such a loser when it comes to socializing?? I don't know man, I just don't know, I positively have the worst personality of anyone I know (well alright anyone I'm close with). Classes have been good or not so bad or whatnot. Social life has been better, much more going out, but its very ... episodic and never reliant. These are the times I wish I'd joined a sorority. Boys - who wants to talk about them? There is a guy I'm seeing but its nothing more than that, and I don't want it to be. My roommate is seeing this guy though and he's over all the damn time this week! I guess this is one of the things that is pissing me off, how she never really asks anyone if its ok when he comes over and then they just monopolize the couch and TV in the living room for an hour or two, yet I feel like I should give her some wiggle room because she's just come out of a very long-term and hurtful relationship and needs some happiness in her life. People - the usual, I don't really feel close to anyone in particular, yet for some reason I'm more ok with that then ever. Wonder if I'm getting used to this somehow, and wonder whether this is a good thing.
Well I haven't been on here in a long long while. Why do I only go on Livejournal when I'm feeling down?? Who knows, who knows. So I have a test in two days that I am NOT motivated to study for. Part of the reason why I'm on here. Took a nap today and woke up feeling disoriented. Its one of my roommates' birthday so there are people over watching TV and having cake, and I want to join them but I also feel like I should study. But in the end I'm doing neither. Ugh why am I always such a loser when it comes to socializing?? I don't know man, I just don't know, I positively have the worst personality of anyone I know (well alright anyone I'm close with). Classes have been good or not so bad or whatnot. Social life has been better, much more going out, but its very ... episodic and never reliant. These are the times I wish I'd joined a sorority. Boys - who wants to talk about them? There is a guy I'm seeing but its nothing more than that, and I don't want it to be. My roommate is seeing this guy though and he's over all the damn time this week! I guess this is one of the things that is pissing me off, how she never really asks anyone if its ok when he comes over and then they just monopolize the couch and TV in the living room for an hour or two, yet I feel like I should give her some wiggle room because she's just come out of a very long-term and hurtful relationship and needs some happiness in her life. People - the usual, I don't really feel close to anyone in particular, yet for some reason I'm more ok with that then ever. Wonder if I'm getting used to this somehow, and wonder whether this is a good thing.