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I am anrgy at my boyfriend for putting me under so much pressure. I want to be his girlfriend, but I don't want to also be his best friend and his family. I felt like I was going crazy trying to keep him together. So tonight, I told him. Online. He justified it by saying that the things he said were not entirely true. Ok, fine, understandable. But I feel like now he's gonna get closed off to me and be polite (which I guess is a better alternative than him dumping all of his emotions on me); that's not what I wanted, I wanted him to find a different outlet for his emotions besides me. Like a friend or something, seeing how he has quite a few. And I also want to be selfish. I feel like my needs have been ignored for so long and the focus has just been on him. Ah I hate this whole mess, even though for some reason I'm not angry at him for getting into an accident.