back to the drawing board.
so i'm rejuvenated, but exhaustedly so.
this is so frustrating.
(i don't know about the poem, tim. hmmmmmwe'llsee.)
anyway i returned from my MN/WI travel extravaganza. not even kidding, i crammed so much into 6 days. it's very impressive. let's just say it couldn't have turned out any better. (besides maybe the last half hour i had in wisconsin.) my visit gave me a new lease on life. haha funny, you say, but yes, it's true. seeing people and being in places that make me feel 100% reminded me how lucky i am. i know statements like this are so cliche, forgive me.
i won't recap my whole time, but highlights:
a. extremely hot: record heat. when standing still outside makes sweat pour down your back and you would rather sit in front of any air source than do anything productive. because that is how you stay alive.
b. thorson hall + 4th floor + tiny room=holy crap HOTTER.
c. camping in big woods state park: amazing.
d. seeing fireflies in large numbers at said park: incredibly amazing.
e. drinking bottlecaps and talking about life in the nfld apartment, spending night in clothes on a mattress in front of the ac.
f. roadtripping with the p. farrell and getting pulled over twice in two consecutive days: 15 miles out of wausau; 200 yards in front of my drop off at the airport. the latter let him off with a warning, thank god. we decided that wisconsin hates p. fizz. fuck you, marathon county.
g. seeing a strip mall-ish type of thing selling cheese curds in one shop, next to an adult videostore, next to a fireworks shop in wisconsin.....hahaahhahahahahahahahahaa.
h. all the trees!!
i. mashed potatoes/shishkabobs in wausau
j. of course, seeing the friends.
the past few days i spent were with three friends who i won't see until february in two cases, fall '07 in others. this accounts for the miserable last few minutes in wausau, because of course i will miss them a great deal but i don't like to show emotion/cry in front of people in these kinds of situations. i got a reality slap in the face, because inevitably things will change in a year. this left me with this realization and a lump in my throat as well as the inability to say anything constructive besides "bye" and "i'll miss you too."
it's my own fault, really.
once again..........shit.
but, worth it. i don't have many regrets. this includes past relationshippy types of friendships. (take that to heart).
i had to have a double shot espresso at 3 this afternoon so i could survive work. regardless, i am still unable to think/speak/put words together. it's lack of sleep and the slight depression that is sinking in about the reality of being home and at work again, and being away from the people who know me the best and who i love in the same way.
i have a feeling that something will crash soon.
this is so frustrating.
(i don't know about the poem, tim. hmmmmmwe'llsee.)
anyway i returned from my MN/WI travel extravaganza. not even kidding, i crammed so much into 6 days. it's very impressive. let's just say it couldn't have turned out any better. (besides maybe the last half hour i had in wisconsin.) my visit gave me a new lease on life. haha funny, you say, but yes, it's true. seeing people and being in places that make me feel 100% reminded me how lucky i am. i know statements like this are so cliche, forgive me.
i won't recap my whole time, but highlights:
a. extremely hot: record heat. when standing still outside makes sweat pour down your back and you would rather sit in front of any air source than do anything productive. because that is how you stay alive.
b. thorson hall + 4th floor + tiny room=holy crap HOTTER.
c. camping in big woods state park: amazing.
d. seeing fireflies in large numbers at said park: incredibly amazing.
e. drinking bottlecaps and talking about life in the nfld apartment, spending night in clothes on a mattress in front of the ac.
f. roadtripping with the p. farrell and getting pulled over twice in two consecutive days: 15 miles out of wausau; 200 yards in front of my drop off at the airport. the latter let him off with a warning, thank god. we decided that wisconsin hates p. fizz. fuck you, marathon county.
g. seeing a strip mall-ish type of thing selling cheese curds in one shop, next to an adult videostore, next to a fireworks shop in wisconsin.....hahaahhahahahahahahahahaa.
h. all the trees!!
i. mashed potatoes/shishkabobs in wausau
j. of course, seeing the friends.
the past few days i spent were with three friends who i won't see until february in two cases, fall '07 in others. this accounts for the miserable last few minutes in wausau, because of course i will miss them a great deal but i don't like to show emotion/cry in front of people in these kinds of situations. i got a reality slap in the face, because inevitably things will change in a year. this left me with this realization and a lump in my throat as well as the inability to say anything constructive besides "bye" and "i'll miss you too."
it's my own fault, really.
once again..........shit.
but, worth it. i don't have many regrets. this includes past relationshippy types of friendships. (take that to heart).
i had to have a double shot espresso at 3 this afternoon so i could survive work. regardless, i am still unable to think/speak/put words together. it's lack of sleep and the slight depression that is sinking in about the reality of being home and at work again, and being away from the people who know me the best and who i love in the same way.
i have a feeling that something will crash soon.