Captain's Log, Stardate:10709.26
I am finally leaving St. Albert. I plan to be living Chez Terry-lynn by Stardate: 10710.03. It is going to be strange living in a place with someone other than family again. Strangely, I will find myself enjoying fewer freedoms than what I have now.
I'm going to be a Dad. Anyone who read my post called The Greatest Responsibility will know how I felt about that. It still feels like a huge undertaking. More,I think,than I might be able to rise to. Remarkably, I'm not as freaked out as I was when I wrote the post, or when I first found out about it. I'm nervous, yes. I seldom notice a moment of the day that I'm not considering it in some form. But there is no more terror associated with it. I guess the understanding of its inevitability was the crucial catalyst to prepare me. My family is excited and supportive, yet I think that even if they were critical and abusive I wouldn't be let down. Those friends I value most have shown me yet again how incredibly fortunate I am they are in my life. Their support and enthusiasm is inspiring. I am looking forward to holding my son or daughter like nothing else in my life until now. I'd like to thank those people, and I hope you know all know who you are.
I'm going to be a Dad. Anyone who read my post called The Greatest Responsibility will know how I felt about that. It still feels like a huge undertaking. More,I think,than I might be able to rise to. Remarkably, I'm not as freaked out as I was when I wrote the post, or when I first found out about it. I'm nervous, yes. I seldom notice a moment of the day that I'm not considering it in some form. But there is no more terror associated with it. I guess the understanding of its inevitability was the crucial catalyst to prepare me. My family is excited and supportive, yet I think that even if they were critical and abusive I wouldn't be let down. Those friends I value most have shown me yet again how incredibly fortunate I am they are in my life. Their support and enthusiasm is inspiring. I am looking forward to holding my son or daughter like nothing else in my life until now. I'd like to thank those people, and I hope you know all know who you are.