Stressed and hating it!!
Err...hello. By reading my journal subtitle, you can pretty much guess that I am not doing too hot. These past couple of days have been very hectic because my dad promised me he would call at the end of the week but he never did. I say, "If you KNOW you are going to break a promise, don't MAKE the promise to begin with." Then, because of all of that, I think I might have taken it out on Brandon by saying that I am going to end the relationship. I know I have friends and family who say "Don't let him put you through all this stress", but quite frankly I don't even think it IS him who is putting me through stress. I am just letting it get to me too easily and I think I am more so just taking it out on him BECAUSE of the stress. So, therefore I am NOT going to break up with Brandon. Heck, I love the crap out of that guy and I KNOW I would regret it if I ended it. If things don't work out for some reason in the future, I would be ok, but he has done nothing really to make me be mad at him or break up with him. I am truly sorry Brandon for what I said and please take into consideration that I am REALLY stressed right now and sometimes I try to take it out on other people. I think you would know that already, heh. I feel so dirty and guilty I wish I could take back what I said, but things happen. You just have to accept your faults and get on with life. ...Anyway, I hope to get back later on today because I told Brandon to call me at around 11:00. I hope things work out and I am truly sorry Brandon. Chat with ya later people. I LOVE YOU BRANDON!!! (really I do) please believe me.
P.S. We won't be going to Ohio because Chase has a doctors appointment for his hand today.
P.S. We won't be going to Ohio because Chase has a doctors appointment for his hand today.