silent dreams, unheard screams, dripping pain...
captains log: you chose him, i didnt question it, not quite understanding but accepting, you cry to me, you cry about him, my heart breaks more patting you on the back wipping your tears telling you that he didnt mean it. He laughs, saying he's fully aware of your mis trials and offers a high five, i grind my teeth with anger, realizing that your dream, was him, and my dream was only for you to be happy. you say you wanted to kiss me, but your with him and dont want to cheat. i smile knowing the outcome before the words escape your mouth, but i'm happy, you gave the answer that i expected and hoped for, your not like the rest, you keep your goals in front and realize what your doing. no drunken excuses, remembering that "drunken kisses lead to mid morning disses". thats what makes you different from others before, others to come let the alcohol ignore the facts and enjoy the moment i'm so glad you turned away. He doesn't care, he doesn't deserve you, you care to much, you dont deserve the bullshit. But i keep silent knowing that if i interupted this experience, that it would come off as jealous not caring. I only wish the best, i only hope you understand, i only hope you see whos with other girls, and who brought you that flower to dry your tears...