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I'm so glad that now that I'm leaving Bloomington for good I find out just how badly I have been screwed over this past year. "Not wanting a relationship," my ass. I have, once again, been played, and now I really wonder how on earth I will ever be able to trust guys again. I should have known that this would eventually happen; afterall, I knew that whatever it was that I've been doing the last year was just all in fun. But being a girl it really *is* hard not to get attached, especially to someone that takes something so precious and irreplaceable from you. I just wish that this wouldn't have happened because it's ruining my view on IU again...just like when Will fucked me over last month. As much as I am looking forward to coming back in October for Homecoming, I am wondering if it will even be worth it now. I don't want to be reminded of the bad memories, and I fear that by coming back I will. Don't get me wrong - there have been plenty of amazing memories too, but I just kind of feel like right now this is my chance to leave Bloomington and all of my IU memories behind and start fresh. I'll hold on to my real friends...the friends that are true and honest when they tell me how much I mean to them...but I guess this is what I needed to get me out of the mindset that I've been in for so long - that the people that you care the most about do not necessarily mean what they say, when they claim to care about you the same.
So here's to starting new. To starting fresh in my new town of Valparaiso...however blah and unexciting it might seem at first, there is always the hope that it will be a great new start and a step in the right direction for me.
So here's to starting new. To starting fresh in my new town of Valparaiso...however blah and unexciting it might seem at first, there is always the hope that it will be a great new start and a step in the right direction for me.