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i'm going to be forced to work at a joint that is.. how do i put this.. not me?
hopefully i'll only have it for a little while. the only reason i'm taking it, is because i really, really, need money.
i'm going to wait for wet seal to call me. it's been two weeks, & every time i call her she says they haven't hired anyone, but she will call me in a week.
i don't have the time to wait around for a month.
i have bills to pay now.
i'm also doing something big. i'm cutting off all alocohol & drugs.
i was getting myself into trouble. losing sight of what i need to do with my life.
doing drugs while being underweight already, is not a smart thing to do. well, doing drugs isn't smart alone.
i was at a point in my life where i felt i was completely alone. i had no one else left, no one that would talk to me about my shit instead of just sitting there. or giving me some sad faces along with an i'm sorry.
then out of the blue lee & i started talking more often. & i seriously feel like i have a new good friend. it's two sided. we can both go to each other for things. we never used to be like that. it's truly amazing what can happen when you get to know someone.
last of all, i'm thinking of applying to sierra college?
i don't know if i want to wait before going straight to it. or if it would be better to get right into school. i think i need a little bit of advice on it.
& should i go to sierra, or american river? i've heard seirra is better. & i know there's no way i can get into a university right now.
so, should i take time off, save up some money, & move?
or, go straight to school, work part time, & push moving out a little further down my timeline?