shit
ok well tonight was mucho fun except for the fact that oh god frumpy...what in the hell is wrong with me..I DONT LIKE HIM!..I CANT LIKE HIM!...its just not right for me to like him. WHY? i cant do this anymore.i thought i was over him..god i cant deal with this anymore this is going to drive me out of my fucking mind.its just, hes the one that broke my heart and was the asshole and y is it that hes the one thats happy like its almost like i got punished with this misery and when i did nothing, he got what he wanted...some prude ugly ass girl.it just doesnt seem fair to me at all but whatever i cant do much about it...i just need to get away from him.which is hard cuz i see him at least once a week and he just loves to rape me and tonight with the intense dancing yea what is that, dude keep it in ur pants or hey maybe its his cell fone(haha-hooters) or HEY LETS MAKE OUT FOR OLD TIMES SAKE.but i just need to get away.im now going back to my pathetic phase yea that was no fun.maybe michelles right maybe i just miss his role in my life not him.just someone who i can call or just hangout with whenever and just be myself with and just be comfortable not that i dont have that already with my friends but yea.its different with him.oh god i cant keep talkin about this..i need sleep..:-/