so i havent done this in a long time but i need to get some things out.
so it seems over the past year and a half i've lost three of the best people i've had in my life. three amazing guys that i just dont have anymore. and that hurts. two of whom were two of the best friends i could have asked for. and the other my love, my everything. so maybe i've managed to get him back somewhat but not completely. not the way i want him. but the other two are just completely gone and theres no coming. so maybe i've messed up some and that was my own fault. but to one of them.. how many times have i lied to you, and how many times has he lied. honestly that should answer your question as to who believe. and honestly you were my best friend we had so much planned and by believing the other person over me it just ruined everything. you were my rock. its been so hard without you. and to the other. we were so close and we screwed up. we should have never crossed that line. but the fact that you can lie so much and break so many promises to me that just shows me who you really are and what your all about. i'm done with you. but you were there for me through alot and honestly we should have just never crossed that line. and to my love. you know who you are and you know that i still love you. you were my best friend my absolute everything. and theres just no turning back now. too much has happened theres too much baggage. but just know i'm here if we ever want it again. but i guess thats it. i miss them so much and i dont what i would have done without them to help me through everything and hopefully one day everything will just be back to normal. back to it was a year a half ago.