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Okay so a serious entry, which hasn't been done for a long time. So recently I've had one of those conscious dreams I learned about in psych 101. It kind of freaked me out because something happened that reasonably could happen in the future and even in the dream (knowing it was a dream) I got scared. It's odd but my dream makes me wonder about choices that I've made. But that's stupid right? I mean you can't change the past and if you didn't do what you did you wouldn't be you. Plus the choices I'm thinking about I'm okay with. I think I'm just jumpy because dreams can seem so real. I'm anxious to get back to school because I miss being able to do what i want when I want and I actually miss the classes and just the regularity of it all.
My brother called me his little sister the other day and somehow it sounded odd to me. I mean it shouldn't have because I am that but still it was a little weird. I think my brother and I have a better relationship now that we're older and he's out of the beat the crap out of my sister phase. I notice that there's still some things that are odd to ask him or talk about with him.it's weird though because these things I want to talk to him about are the odd feeling conversations.
I just lit some inscense and it reminds me of when I was in Johnson hanging out at Shay's. You know I miss her something awful. I haven't seen her in about three years. SO much has changed with her and I feel bad because I couldn't have been there for her and part of that is my fault.I know people wouldn't think that but it's true.