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ok...i knew this was going to happen. you know how i know? because it was too good to be true. i was ALMOST waiting for it to happen. but then i thought, "no, this one, hopefully, will work out."...so i thought. yep, im single...again. i hate this. really, i do. i thought me and brenna were totally cool. she said "when your name comes up in a conversation or when i think of you, i dont think of you as my boyfriend. i think 'oh jeremy, someone i can talk to, someone i can trust.'" *sigh* yep...so basically she said she doens't like me in that special way anymore. which sucks. i cried. last night. for a while. but it was a good cry. im better know. i just have to not think about it...and u know what else? I had to CALL HER for her to break up with me...weird huh?...oh well...i mean i have to live with it. i think ill be ok in a day or two...maybe wrestling and drumming should get my mind off it. and you know im kinda glad that i didn't kiss her. here why: me and angela talking one day right? she goes "so have you kissed her yet?" i say "nope, im not going to" she says" why?" then i say "because if she really likes me it wouldn't matter when i kissed her" which was a while ago...i just think its ironic. lol kinda funny too. lol. soo...severely stressing for two days should do it. i dont think im gonna go out with someone again too much stress, i think ill just talk...and stuff...i got a new tactic. im gonna wait until they come to me basically and have THEM make the initiative. then. were gonna talk and stuff. not be boyfriend girlfriend. im not even going to kiss them. because thats the beginning of attachment. so if and when i kiss...this person...ill know that they really truley like me because it'll be a while for when i do. because only special people get kisses. anyway thats enough about that junk. its now considered junk because its something bad that happened. anywaaays! i got a new beanie!!! HOLY SHIT!! its siiiiiiick!!!!!! its reversible!!! omG! i love it!!! and this weekend im supposed to get a throne for my drum set!!! OH MY GOD!!! I LEARNED SYSTEM OF A DOWN!!!!!!! -TOXICITY- FUCK YEAH!!!! THAT SONG RULES!!! its like..verbatim!!!! damn... im good...kahp9fdyra#$%&()!!!! fuck yeah!!! ahhh!!! ok im done freaking out. damn i love that song. shit...fuck yeah! ok im done. but yeah! thats what happened!!! oh...and my aunt just got out of jail. so thats cool. but thats it. I RULE DAMMIT!!!