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So here I sit in Chicago, STILL living at Grandma and Paka's, but now they are back from France, and Grandma STILL is treating me like I'm nine and trying to order at resturants for me and trying to do all my talking and if I insist on doing stuff for myself, she lurks in the background as if I'm being tested and whispers instructions for what to do in my ear or takes over should I not be asking all the right questions. honestly, how am I supposed to get ANYTHING done in this bloody situation? is she ALWAYS going to think that I am still a little girl? when the hell is she going to get a grip on the fact that I am 21, I can do EVERYTHING she can do, not because I'm a particularly privileged and special KID but because I'm a FUCKING ADULT!!!!! I've BEEN an adult by legal standards for the last three bloody years. I've been ordering my own food at resturants for much longer than that, I am capable of asking for things that I really care about, I appreciate that she wants to make me happy and all, but I think the reason is that she thinks I'll blow a fuse if I don't get my way, like Uncle Larry does. I have a hellish temper, but the thing that really pisses me off the most is being waited on hand and foot for everything and in the event that I'm not waited on, being treated like this is some sort of test to make sure I really can do it myself. and apparently, I usually fail because generally speaking I am interupted and she finishes. Piss and moan. the more she pushes and pressures, the more I rebel and push the other way. She doesn't get it though.
Other news: I have found several job leads, and as I'm not going on the day's trip to the city (much to Grandma's horror, she won't have her second opinion with her, she'll have to make up her mind herself, darn), I actually have an entire undisturbed day in which to work on my resume and get it ready for these jobs and pack up to go to Aunt Jackie's. yay!!! So I'll post my resume later for a final edit, and i'll email it off to the first job lead I'm pursuing later this afternoon. and I'll be partying as I do it!
Other news: I have found several job leads, and as I'm not going on the day's trip to the city (much to Grandma's horror, she won't have her second opinion with her, she'll have to make up her mind herself, darn), I actually have an entire undisturbed day in which to work on my resume and get it ready for these jobs and pack up to go to Aunt Jackie's. yay!!! So I'll post my resume later for a final edit, and i'll email it off to the first job lead I'm pursuing later this afternoon. and I'll be partying as I do it!