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is the summer already over? i still haven't taken a girl to the beach. today i got stood up by a dumb ho. slide down my back. now i have greater problems than to let anything outside of my own life bother me anymore. and you know what, i really don't care about other people anymore, either. cause nothing really matters too much except what i feel like giving a fuck about, which just wanes. no one really lives up to the standards i was taught to uphold for so many years. my parents still truly treat me as a child - incredible. sometimes i think that part of me will only stop once they're dead and i sometimes strangely long for it.
i don't trust anyone anymore. 'paranoia is just life on a finer scale.' and i see it.
to tell the truth, i want to kill. i'm ready to give it all up and go. fuck i am so sick of people running away.
it seems like more people have livejournals in mission hills than ever did when i lived there. when i lived there..... and there is another misnomer. just gonna ride this feeling.
car is really fucked up now and now i'm stuck. now i'm stuck.
for a long time i had a deep desire to know and connect with people. to understand more deeply. but as more is revealed, it's more of a hassle that i have to test myself to endure, and i'm losing the will. things could be so simple if you'd just let it go.
somewhere still there is romance. one day i will be a stone wall.
i don't trust anyone anymore. 'paranoia is just life on a finer scale.' and i see it.
to tell the truth, i want to kill. i'm ready to give it all up and go. fuck i am so sick of people running away.
it seems like more people have livejournals in mission hills than ever did when i lived there. when i lived there..... and there is another misnomer. just gonna ride this feeling.
car is really fucked up now and now i'm stuck. now i'm stuck.
for a long time i had a deep desire to know and connect with people. to understand more deeply. but as more is revealed, it's more of a hassle that i have to test myself to endure, and i'm losing the will. things could be so simple if you'd just let it go.
somewhere still there is romance. one day i will be a stone wall.