but my heart, it don't beat
Doing this old meme:
1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle.
3. Write a drabble related to each song that plays. You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble; you start when the song starts, and stop when it’s over. No lingering afterwards!
4. Do ten of these, then post them.
Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh! GX /deal with it.jpg B)
1. Australia, The Shins
Jim→Asuka, Asuka→Juudai
Three days after the world un-unravels, Asuka finds Jim down by the beach.
"I thought crocodiles were freshwater swimmers," she says, sitting down by him on the sand.
Jim is uncharacteristically quiet. "Karen likes the wet, I guess," he finally says. Asuka should take it as a sign, but she can't do this anymore. Can't keep walking around this hole, this gaping trench in her life. Does no one notice it? That's a bad question; of course they do. It's the antithesis of unnoticeable.
"Jim," she says, and he's bracing already, she sees - "Jim, we can't keep doing this. I've tried talking to everyone else," - almost pleading - "Jim, what happened there?"
2. She Had the World, Panic at the Disco
Asuka/Juudai(???)
It's not that he doesn't see it. It's that he doesn't want to see it.
In earlier years, it was just a thing, an abstract kind of idea - Asuka likes you, Sho'd told him once, candidly, during a late-night discussion. When he didn't reply at first, Sho'd backtracked and said well, whatever, who knows, it's not like girls are his forte, like if he'd pressed the issue any further someone would have heard.
It's not that Juudai doesn't like her back. It's just that it's... it's a different thing. It's not the same. Juudai's idea of love at that time was something he'd learned from movies, when you get tongue-tied and silly around someone, and to be honest, the idea of Asuka tongue-tied and silly was absurd. Asuka was Asuka was Asuka. She couldn't be in love, that's crazy. Of all the ideas!
That was then, and now... now it's not right.
3. Light with a Sharpened Edge, The Used
Fubuki
Fubuki had forgotten what the sun looked like, so the first time he'd gotten out of the hospital, he couldn't even see. Even with his eyes clenched shut, they'd streamed with tears.
It was amazing.
Everything was amazing.
Sometimes he wonders how anyone can ever be sad at all, when the world is so huge and bright and right at their fingertips. It took him two days to remember how to play the ukelele, and then he'd kept it to his chest until his fingers started bleeding.
4. Summer (In B), Amber Pacific
Juudai
First summer, Juudai went and got his boating license, figuring that if anything weird happened next year, he'd better be able to get out fast.
Second summer, Juudai had a fight with his mother one night, the worst he could remember. He went to bed shaking and woke up with a familiar scream halfway up his throat, for the first time in years. The fervent apology in the morning was unexpected, to judge by the look on her face.
Third summer, Juudai never went home.
5. Last Night on Earth, Green Day
O'Brien
It's strange, going home after that year. Austin can barely wrap his mind around it sometimes. He'd walked in the door, fully okay, perfectly normal, gripped Daddy's hand, wrapped Mommy in a hug, talked about his year in oblique references and skating generalizations. Then, he'd smelled dinner later that evening and had to lock himself in the bathroom and smother his face in a towel, sobbing uncontrollably. If his parents heard, they didn't know how to address it. He didn't talk about it. He still doesn't.
6. Lost Art, Mere Mortals
Manjoume→Asuka
It kills Manjoume sometimes that Asuka doesn't want to be a pop idol, but then he thinks about having to share her image with thousands of other people, loyal fans, less-loyal detractors, and maybe (horror of horrors and evil of evils!) lunatic men in basements leering over magazine spreads; then he thinks about these things and decides things are a lot better as they are. No one else will know how good she looks in costume.
7. When You Were Young, The Killers
Asuka/Juudai(???)
When Asuka was young, Fubuki always wanted to play knight and princess with her. Whereupon she'd kick him in the shins and run, because she knew that playing knight and princess meant that she'd have to stand in the small hollow they'd found in the middle of the bushes and say, "Help, I'm in a dungeon," while Fubuki got to have all the fun crashing around in the undergrowth slaying giant dragons and poking things with sticks. No thank you.
Asuka decided at a very young age that she'd have nothing to do with knights or heroes.
And so, she thinks, clutching her arms and fighting tears, that's what she's doing now, because she'd forgotten that important lesson. Knights and heroes, they're all the same, forgetting that the people they're trying to save could save themselves just as easily, given the chance. Given the opportunity. Asuka can slay her own imaginary dragons, thanks.
She just never realized how easy it would be, killing something you can't see. And how much it would hurt.
8. Acoustic #3, Goo Goo Dolls
Juudai(/Johan)
Juudai refuses to watch the ship pull out from harbor the day the Branch Academy students leave. He goes out to the east beach instead, and practices holding his breath underwater as long as he can. Practices not hearing anything. Practices not seeing anything. Practices not caring.
It gets easier.
9. The Tip of the Iceberg, Owl City
Juudai/Johan
Johan can speak fluent Norwegian, and it had fascinated Juudai for maybe an entire day. "Fjord," Johan says, trying and failing to keep a straight face. It's Johan's first night in the Osiris Dorms. Sho has a towel on his head, and Kenzan is still showering.
"F... fui-yoru-do," Juudai manages to get out, and Sho bursts out laughing.
"Right," Johan says, with a mischievous gleam in his eye, "you're supposed to pine for them."
10. J.A.R. [Jason Andrew Relva], Green Day
Juudai, Sho, Ryo
Sho looks so sad these days, Juudai doesn't really know how to talk to him sometimes.
"You know," he attempts one day, despite all his better instincts screaming, "you know, I'm sure Ryo's just, uh..."
"He's just gone insane," Sho says, with uncharacteristic fierceness. "That's what he's 'just.' And I'm going to make him realize it."
What's there to say to that? Juudai's not sure he understands it, sometimes; he's never had a brother, or anything like it. So all he can do is support Sho and hope neither of his friends gets hurt.
...Not bad, I guess :/a
Although, for someone who definitely does not ship Asuka/Juudai, I certainly wrote enough of it. (Granted, they were all depressing and unrequited, BUT STILL.)
1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle.
3. Write a drabble related to each song that plays. You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble; you start when the song starts, and stop when it’s over. No lingering afterwards!
4. Do ten of these, then post them.
Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh! GX /deal with it.jpg B)
1. Australia, The Shins
Jim→Asuka, Asuka→Juudai
Three days after the world un-unravels, Asuka finds Jim down by the beach.
"I thought crocodiles were freshwater swimmers," she says, sitting down by him on the sand.
Jim is uncharacteristically quiet. "Karen likes the wet, I guess," he finally says. Asuka should take it as a sign, but she can't do this anymore. Can't keep walking around this hole, this gaping trench in her life. Does no one notice it? That's a bad question; of course they do. It's the antithesis of unnoticeable.
"Jim," she says, and he's bracing already, she sees - "Jim, we can't keep doing this. I've tried talking to everyone else," - almost pleading - "Jim, what happened there?"
2. She Had the World, Panic at the Disco
Asuka/Juudai(???)
It's not that he doesn't see it. It's that he doesn't want to see it.
In earlier years, it was just a thing, an abstract kind of idea - Asuka likes you, Sho'd told him once, candidly, during a late-night discussion. When he didn't reply at first, Sho'd backtracked and said well, whatever, who knows, it's not like girls are his forte, like if he'd pressed the issue any further someone would have heard.
It's not that Juudai doesn't like her back. It's just that it's... it's a different thing. It's not the same. Juudai's idea of love at that time was something he'd learned from movies, when you get tongue-tied and silly around someone, and to be honest, the idea of Asuka tongue-tied and silly was absurd. Asuka was Asuka was Asuka. She couldn't be in love, that's crazy. Of all the ideas!
That was then, and now... now it's not right.
3. Light with a Sharpened Edge, The Used
Fubuki
Fubuki had forgotten what the sun looked like, so the first time he'd gotten out of the hospital, he couldn't even see. Even with his eyes clenched shut, they'd streamed with tears.
It was amazing.
Everything was amazing.
Sometimes he wonders how anyone can ever be sad at all, when the world is so huge and bright and right at their fingertips. It took him two days to remember how to play the ukelele, and then he'd kept it to his chest until his fingers started bleeding.
4. Summer (In B), Amber Pacific
Juudai
First summer, Juudai went and got his boating license, figuring that if anything weird happened next year, he'd better be able to get out fast.
Second summer, Juudai had a fight with his mother one night, the worst he could remember. He went to bed shaking and woke up with a familiar scream halfway up his throat, for the first time in years. The fervent apology in the morning was unexpected, to judge by the look on her face.
Third summer, Juudai never went home.
5. Last Night on Earth, Green Day
O'Brien
It's strange, going home after that year. Austin can barely wrap his mind around it sometimes. He'd walked in the door, fully okay, perfectly normal, gripped Daddy's hand, wrapped Mommy in a hug, talked about his year in oblique references and skating generalizations. Then, he'd smelled dinner later that evening and had to lock himself in the bathroom and smother his face in a towel, sobbing uncontrollably. If his parents heard, they didn't know how to address it. He didn't talk about it. He still doesn't.
6. Lost Art, Mere Mortals
Manjoume→Asuka
It kills Manjoume sometimes that Asuka doesn't want to be a pop idol, but then he thinks about having to share her image with thousands of other people, loyal fans, less-loyal detractors, and maybe (horror of horrors and evil of evils!) lunatic men in basements leering over magazine spreads; then he thinks about these things and decides things are a lot better as they are. No one else will know how good she looks in costume.
7. When You Were Young, The Killers
Asuka/Juudai(???)
When Asuka was young, Fubuki always wanted to play knight and princess with her. Whereupon she'd kick him in the shins and run, because she knew that playing knight and princess meant that she'd have to stand in the small hollow they'd found in the middle of the bushes and say, "Help, I'm in a dungeon," while Fubuki got to have all the fun crashing around in the undergrowth slaying giant dragons and poking things with sticks. No thank you.
Asuka decided at a very young age that she'd have nothing to do with knights or heroes.
And so, she thinks, clutching her arms and fighting tears, that's what she's doing now, because she'd forgotten that important lesson. Knights and heroes, they're all the same, forgetting that the people they're trying to save could save themselves just as easily, given the chance. Given the opportunity. Asuka can slay her own imaginary dragons, thanks.
She just never realized how easy it would be, killing something you can't see. And how much it would hurt.
8. Acoustic #3, Goo Goo Dolls
Juudai(/Johan)
Juudai refuses to watch the ship pull out from harbor the day the Branch Academy students leave. He goes out to the east beach instead, and practices holding his breath underwater as long as he can. Practices not hearing anything. Practices not seeing anything. Practices not caring.
It gets easier.
9. The Tip of the Iceberg, Owl City
Juudai/Johan
Johan can speak fluent Norwegian, and it had fascinated Juudai for maybe an entire day. "Fjord," Johan says, trying and failing to keep a straight face. It's Johan's first night in the Osiris Dorms. Sho has a towel on his head, and Kenzan is still showering.
"F... fui-yoru-do," Juudai manages to get out, and Sho bursts out laughing.
"Right," Johan says, with a mischievous gleam in his eye, "you're supposed to pine for them."
10. J.A.R. [Jason Andrew Relva], Green Day
Juudai, Sho, Ryo
Sho looks so sad these days, Juudai doesn't really know how to talk to him sometimes.
"You know," he attempts one day, despite all his better instincts screaming, "you know, I'm sure Ryo's just, uh..."
"He's just gone insane," Sho says, with uncharacteristic fierceness. "That's what he's 'just.' And I'm going to make him realize it."
What's there to say to that? Juudai's not sure he understands it, sometimes; he's never had a brother, or anything like it. So all he can do is support Sho and hope neither of his friends gets hurt.
...Not bad, I guess :/a
Although, for someone who definitely does not ship Asuka/Juudai, I certainly wrote enough of it. (Granted, they were all depressing and unrequited, BUT STILL.)