and no one even knew, it was really only you
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Pick a paragraph (or any passage less than 500 words) from any fanfic I've written, and comment to this post with that selection. I will then give you a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what's going on in the character's heads, why I chose certain ( Read more... )
Pick a paragraph (or any passage less than 500 words) from any fanfic I've written, and comment to this post with that selection. I will then give you a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what's going on in the character's heads, why I chose certain ( Read more... )
Being a traitor didn’t matter. Being a villain didn’t matter. His death at Sasuke’s hands would have taken care of that. No one would mourn him, as no one mourns the wicked-he would reap as he had sown, and Sasuke could finally live. His unattainable redemption would come at the mercies of fate and the avenger of his clan. The blood of all the Uchiha was on his hands forever, but this-
This was beyond unforgivable.
No matter how long Itachi lived, and no matter how painfully he died, nothing he could do could ever make up for this.
This... this abomination was his final sin to bear.
“So,” Orochimaru said, bringing out a kunai and smiling horribly, “it’s nothing personal, Itachi-kun. It was simply...” His smile widened as he prepared to deliver the last verbal blow.
“...his last request.”
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The knowledge that Sasuke was still alive was both balm and terror to Itachi. Comfort that Itachi still had a chance, not to redeem himself (an impossible task), but to atone, at least. Terror that any day could be his last, whether falling to Orochimaru or someone else, it didn’t matter. Sasuke had to be there to watch his brother fall.
Itachi’s greatest fear was dying alone.
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The third time Itachi had the nightmare, he rolled over and went back to sleep.
He deserved to live in fear.
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I like the idea of Itachi having really bad nightmares all the time, to the point where he feels weird when he doesn't have them. (I didn't use the second part of that idea in this fic, but I might use it in Those Who Favor Fire.) Specifically, this fic came about after I spent a great deal of time thinking about what Itachi's reaction must have been when he heard that Sasuke had gone over to Orochimaru, given his own history with the man. It occurred to me to wonder what Itachi's reaction would have been if Orochimaru succeeded in taking Sasuke's body for his own, and what kind of wrench that would have thrown into Itachi's Planz.
Also, it's kind of horrible to think about when you remember that Itachi does love Sasuke, even in his own messy way. ;__;
I also like the last little scene in there, where Itachi is shown waking up after the third time he has the nightmare, and he can't even react to it anymore because he has to live with the idea, the possibility, every day--to the point that it isn't that the idea doesn't scare him anymore, but that he's just completely dead, emotion-wise, to fear.
bawww, Itachi~ ♥ I may also be playing more with the basis of this idea in TWFF, so keep an eye out for it!
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