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FUCK, I DO NOTHING. Seriously, nothing. I don't even sleep at night. I only sleep in class and I only go to class every other day. I need some goddamn motivation. I need a reason to want to do good in school and I need a reason to want to actually do productive shit. I don't have a reason though, so I don't do anything except rot in my fucking house and listen to music and fucking check the internet every damn second. Shaun is actually right, for once, bhahah. I'm wasting my life by not wanting to have fun. From now on, when somebody asks me to hang out... I'm going to fucking hang the fuck out with them and I'm not going to bitch about being tired or not being in the mood. I'm going to fucking do it and I'm going to fucking enjoy it also. I didn't even leave my house this entire weekend. I'm not even fucking around, not once. I'm making a promise with myself that I am never doing that ever again. It's damn depressing. I already know I failed this school year, obviously, fuck, but next year I get to start over at a new school. Everything is going to be good next year, I already know it. But, I am going to make the best out of the rest of this school year. Oh and when I say that I don't mean I'm going to become some badass or anything. I just mean I am going to try and be happy for once.