The more I learn about myself...
Lately, I feel like I've discovered two halves of myself.
On one side, is Mark most people know. The level headed, patient, logical, optimistic, mature Mark. It's what I've building myself up to be for the past two decades. He's mellow and easy to get along with; always with a smile; kind, caring, and fair towards others. Trustworthiness is not a problem.
但是另外一邊是不常見到的大年。很容易吃醋、脾氣不好、沒有耐心、沒有禮貌、不會關心、又幼稚的大年。如果沒有好朋友在身邊跟著成長、並且指導我，大家就會認識這一位沒水準又可怕的人。
I personally don't like the latter half of me. But without anybody around to trust, that evil half comes out to protect myself. And usually with undesirable consequences.
Recently, I've been in the latter state. I'm scaring even myself. Help.
I want to be a good person.
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最近我覺得我發現自己內心中的兩半。
一邊是大家認識的馬克。頭腦清醒、有耐心、會思考、樂觀、成熟的馬克。我活了二十幾年就是在培養這一個自己。跟大家很容易交往，常有笑容，關心，又公平。信任不是個問題。
But on the other side is rarely seen. A jealous, easily angered, impatient, rude, uncaring, and immature self. If there weren't good friends to guide and grow up with me, this is the scary and immoral person everyone would know.
我個人不喜歡第二個自己。但是當身邊沒有朋友可依靠的時候，為了保護自己，那邪惡的一半會現身。並且會有不想要的結果。
這幾天，我的第二個自己現身了。連我自己都嚇到了。救救我啊。
我要做好人。
On one side, is Mark most people know. The level headed, patient, logical, optimistic, mature Mark. It's what I've building myself up to be for the past two decades. He's mellow and easy to get along with; always with a smile; kind, caring, and fair towards others. Trustworthiness is not a problem.
但是另外一邊是不常見到的大年。很容易吃醋、脾氣不好、沒有耐心、沒有禮貌、不會關心、又幼稚的大年。如果沒有好朋友在身邊跟著成長、並且指導我，大家就會認識這一位沒水準又可怕的人。
I personally don't like the latter half of me. But without anybody around to trust, that evil half comes out to protect myself. And usually with undesirable consequences.
Recently, I've been in the latter state. I'm scaring even myself. Help.
I want to be a good person.
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最近我覺得我發現自己內心中的兩半。
一邊是大家認識的馬克。頭腦清醒、有耐心、會思考、樂觀、成熟的馬克。我活了二十幾年就是在培養這一個自己。跟大家很容易交往，常有笑容，關心，又公平。信任不是個問題。
But on the other side is rarely seen. A jealous, easily angered, impatient, rude, uncaring, and immature self. If there weren't good friends to guide and grow up with me, this is the scary and immoral person everyone would know.
我個人不喜歡第二個自己。但是當身邊沒有朋友可依靠的時候，為了保護自己，那邪惡的一半會現身。並且會有不想要的結果。
這幾天，我的第二個自己現身了。連我自己都嚇到了。救救我啊。
我要做好人。