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it's been very fulfilling working at prime, and in many ways, i feel very bonded with the kitchen staff.
i may be overwhelmed with fatigue, but fuck, i actually get work-sick.. i don't think of it as being a workaholic..
i really think i just fucking love the team that works with togetherness - we're like a big family.
everybody's always looking out for each other, we learn together every day, and i think especially me.. i've grown!
something very symbolic over the week though: everybody's always protecting me from something of some sort.
this protection or shield from something has always been recurrent in my life, with many people, at many different times..
sometimes, if i think really hard about it, i feel really loved and cared for.. it feels good to know i'm in safe hands...
but i think.. there are times i wish to grow out of this protection.
i want to be out there to experience things on my own - if i do get burnt, i get burnt, i deal..
i know it sounds crazy and sadistic but i think this aggression on my part was born right after my 18th birthday.
my inabilities, my flaws, my weaknesses.. just downright frustrated me. for a while, i dealt with the blow the wrong way.
i hope, i am dealing with it proper now.. even then.. i guess i'm still learning..
rawr. i realise i've gone out of track. blahh.. just a note to write in here..
p/s: all the best for supp paper adele!
p/ps: ade baby.. i know i'm always inactive, but you don't know how much i really want to see you! meet up soon!!!! (when i get an off day)
i may be overwhelmed with fatigue, but fuck, i actually get work-sick.. i don't think of it as being a workaholic..
i really think i just fucking love the team that works with togetherness - we're like a big family.
everybody's always looking out for each other, we learn together every day, and i think especially me.. i've grown!
something very symbolic over the week though: everybody's always protecting me from something of some sort.
this protection or shield from something has always been recurrent in my life, with many people, at many different times..
sometimes, if i think really hard about it, i feel really loved and cared for.. it feels good to know i'm in safe hands...
but i think.. there are times i wish to grow out of this protection.
i want to be out there to experience things on my own - if i do get burnt, i get burnt, i deal..
i know it sounds crazy and sadistic but i think this aggression on my part was born right after my 18th birthday.
my inabilities, my flaws, my weaknesses.. just downright frustrated me. for a while, i dealt with the blow the wrong way.
i hope, i am dealing with it proper now.. even then.. i guess i'm still learning..
rawr. i realise i've gone out of track. blahh.. just a note to write in here..
p/s: all the best for supp paper adele!
p/ps: ade baby.. i know i'm always inactive, but you don't know how much i really want to see you! meet up soon!!!! (when i get an off day)