well i've been holdin on tonight

[okah123]

sorry guys ive been a bit under the weather. juliet was born at 3:06 A.M. on Tuesday June 14th. it wasnt the most traditional birth i guess you could say, but it got the kid out and thats really all that matters. zaccyboy, you're quite the hero. *smiles proudly* thank god you're my brother, really. you saved me

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[okah123]

thanks for the congrats hunny, i appreciate it. i guess i am strong, huh. i mean ive gone through everything ive gone through and here i am, im still alive, i came out on top. but all thanks to you zac, and to thoe who supported me and didnt give into me even when i said i needed it. dont worry about me im fine, the fever's gone, everything's well. juliet is fabulous, she really is a special child.

well zac its all thanks to you. it wasnt easy for me to give you up you know? being touched by someone you know loves you unconditionally...its like a fucking drug. *goes into a little daze-like place* just the warmth of having big strong hands on me, feeling protected...knowing that i could make YOU feel good in a different way zac, even though you were uncomfortable. knowing your cock got hard for me.......*breathes a little heavily and then shakes her head trying to snap out of it and sighs* i...i'm s-sorry. sorry zac. i should stop now. just know that i love you, thank you for helping me. *breathing bcomes ragged as she shivers a little* i just wish i had someone now who felt like you.

[doinitwitrythem]

Of course your strong, aint no fucking doubt about that and I give praise to you lol your a tough little shit, seriously! You don't owe me nothing Avery, you were and are capable of all of it, like everyone else..all you needed was a good push and I was the one that happened to give you that push. I'm glad that the fever is gone and that you are well and everything worked out with the delivery of Juliet.You took her to the hospital right?Just to get a 2nd opinion, a professional opinion on whether or not she is completely healthy?Lol You know how I worry.

I know Avery, even though I didn't really understand from the begining and am not going to lie and say I ever fully understand even to this day, I could only imagine how addicting and hard it was for you, as you've proven to us all..especially being the eceptional fighter that you already are. I know that there are going to be a few occasional set-backs but all that matters is that your resistancy is higher you know? You know that YOUR in control now, those thoughs and feelings don't control YOU. It doesn't have to happen anymore, doesn't have to be anymore. I love you too Avery, always have and always will..like the little sister I watched grow up right before my eyes, the one I helped feed and diaper,the one who looked to me for security and comfort. And you one day will....he will be better than any one of us could have been to you,and you know what?He won't ever let you go.