Weeeell... Okay?
I'm getting kind of tired lately of people who don't know themselves. People who don't know themselves don't know how to figure out things or go about understandin something, and when that happens they can often end up hurting someone else. It's okay to be unsure about some things, but at some point you should have formulated some kind of opinion on things, and have enough sense to know what you do and do not like. This isn't just about one person or one circumstance... This is about a lot of people and things that have happened with me lately, and something that I personally feel that i've overcome.
Basically I just need to stay away from those people I guess.
Hotchkiss life is just as exhausting, but i'm adjusting a little better since i've really become confident in myself. Making friends is a heck of a lot easier when you don't have to worry about yourself, and i'm surprised almost that I was able to come back after break and be able to make or get closer to new friends.
Right now i'm reading the vagina monologues, romeo and juliet, bits and piece of jane eyre, and the fall all at the same time. I've never done this before, read so many things at the same time. Normally reading is so intense for me that I have to devote all of my mind to one book, and hotchkiss is basically forcing me to do otherwise, and with positive results. It's allowing me to see many different styles and opinions at the same time.
I'm getting tired of men, in other news. I guess that's a really general comment, but guys are just turning me off more and more... Too many guys now I've found... just don't know how to be my friend. When there's nothing sexual going on, or if I'm not willing to do anything, they just don't know what to do. I know it's almost cliche to say that, but it's true, and I've never had that problem, so it's a little difficult for me to understand. Maybe i'm just hanging around people, specifically guys, that are just too immature.
But I'm getting together with my girls. I saw alisa and han the other day, and kat and all that... I love women. And that's fun to say and believe, because I don't know if I did before. Girls have been catty and mean to me for most of my life. My mom was always blunt and I'll even go so far as to say bitchy, with me sometimes... I often got excluded from things in terms of the "cliques" I'd been a part of in middle school and freshmen year. Girls usually couldn't say things directly to me, and when they did I was always too offended and self concious to be their friend anymore.
But really? Women are amazing. And hannah, i hope you're reading this because I love the ani lyrics on your profile just so you know. ANYWAY. Women. We have more opinions and ideas pushed on us than we think, and while growing up, the population of man has taught us almost to not be honest, or to think that other women have as many thoughts in common with each other as they really do. This isn't just brought up because of the Vagina monologues or anything like that... I've just been noticing it more and more. And all the power to the women who don't need to rely on a man, and who can find that one other friend they can be completely honest with. I haven't found mine yet, but it's all good.
That's all i've got to say for now i guess.
Love love love yet again.
Basically I just need to stay away from those people I guess.
Hotchkiss life is just as exhausting, but i'm adjusting a little better since i've really become confident in myself. Making friends is a heck of a lot easier when you don't have to worry about yourself, and i'm surprised almost that I was able to come back after break and be able to make or get closer to new friends.
Right now i'm reading the vagina monologues, romeo and juliet, bits and piece of jane eyre, and the fall all at the same time. I've never done this before, read so many things at the same time. Normally reading is so intense for me that I have to devote all of my mind to one book, and hotchkiss is basically forcing me to do otherwise, and with positive results. It's allowing me to see many different styles and opinions at the same time.
I'm getting tired of men, in other news. I guess that's a really general comment, but guys are just turning me off more and more... Too many guys now I've found... just don't know how to be my friend. When there's nothing sexual going on, or if I'm not willing to do anything, they just don't know what to do. I know it's almost cliche to say that, but it's true, and I've never had that problem, so it's a little difficult for me to understand. Maybe i'm just hanging around people, specifically guys, that are just too immature.
But I'm getting together with my girls. I saw alisa and han the other day, and kat and all that... I love women. And that's fun to say and believe, because I don't know if I did before. Girls have been catty and mean to me for most of my life. My mom was always blunt and I'll even go so far as to say bitchy, with me sometimes... I often got excluded from things in terms of the "cliques" I'd been a part of in middle school and freshmen year. Girls usually couldn't say things directly to me, and when they did I was always too offended and self concious to be their friend anymore.
But really? Women are amazing. And hannah, i hope you're reading this because I love the ani lyrics on your profile just so you know. ANYWAY. Women. We have more opinions and ideas pushed on us than we think, and while growing up, the population of man has taught us almost to not be honest, or to think that other women have as many thoughts in common with each other as they really do. This isn't just brought up because of the Vagina monologues or anything like that... I've just been noticing it more and more. And all the power to the women who don't need to rely on a man, and who can find that one other friend they can be completely honest with. I haven't found mine yet, but it's all good.
That's all i've got to say for now i guess.
Love love love yet again.