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i am at that point where i hate school. i hate the classes, i hate the people, i hate the homework, i hate the drama, i hate everything about it and want to drop out. i am more than lightly considering it but it probably wont happen. i dont know if i want to go to a good college anymore. i dont want to do much of anything. i have worked so hard to achieve this goal and i have always thought oh honors classes are good cuz they got me thinking. ok, is thinking a good balance for no life no friends no fun?now that im looking back on it i dont know if honors was the best choice for me. i am burnt out. i just dont care anymore. its funny because i dont care enough to try anymore but i do care enough to freak out that i wont get into berkeley when my grades suck. i dont even WANT to go to berkeley anymore. i think i want to major in something like dance and film or something. if i do go. t his summer i am going to europe again. hopefully with jenny. i hope so much that she can go, but if she for any reason cant, im still going; by myself. nothing is holding me back im getting the hell out of this place.