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Suuuuka!!!!! Im talking to all these Russian guys its really fun!! And i just read loys journal, i love this online journal thing its the good side of technology! ...so yeah .. i dont knwo about derrek he .. is great when we are alone but changes very suddenly when with people...and in general NOT for the records of course.... I JUST FUCKING MISS ARTIE!!!!!! DAMN IT TO FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!
and FOR the records, i still loathe myself with a fiery passion... On the brighter side of town, loyyyyyy haha i liked the first journal entry, it made me smile *cheese* :-D yee i made a smiley face, its pretty awesome and his name is sam. thank you loy, seriously it really touched me and made my day, which was kinda crappy to begin with. YOU SHOULD COME WITH ME TO RUSSIA..(shit!) I MEAN BELARUS, damn i got so used to telling people that, that i started saying it now! DAMN THEM SPAWNS OF SAINTAN...how do you you spell that, i have been having issues with the english language these days like you wouldnt believe, even though i know speak it 24/7 again, which should even matter since its my first language!!!! This is lame. And you know when i get back...hehe i should probably not jump right back into my job of teaching people english because, well lets just say i have a talent...is that what we are calling it now, most just call it stupid or annoying. WELL TOO BAD I AM CALLING IT A TALENT X-P!! anyways i possess a talent of acquiring accents, habits and cultural traits in very little time, and its really weird because i do these things unconsciously, like for example when i say the world tortillas, or enchiladas or Andres's name or anything like that, i say it with a spanish accent unconciously and people, if they know me they give me an odd look and usually say "Courtney you are American, talk like one." which is really embarrassing because sometimes i dont like being the weird one..it okay for some things but not that.. and i say good weird, like a russian, i dont know where this came from...but you know i bet loy would talk like a japanese girl and have an accent if she could just to confuse people. i do this when i am in a new environment, i always talk with an accent, just because i feel more secure that way, like they are not hearing the real me.. its kinda weird i always do this with strangers and sometimes its just fun, because i can be convincing and i grow bored of america and speaking english all the time, really i do, this is why i have this desire, this overwhelming, all-consuming urge to travel and study language abroad. This is why i loved my job so much and why i liked being with Antonio, because i didnt have to speak english in fact it was prefered that i didnt, and i loved that, i even spoke spanish with americans learning spanish just because i just felt good doing it!! Seriously it made life sooo interesting i was never bored of america then. Oww my nipples hurt, probably because of my stupid lame ass period. I AM JUST LIKE OBSSESSED WITH THIS GUY, AS I HAVE BEEN FOR A WHILE NOW, BUT I THINK ABOUT HIM WAY TOO MUCH... i dont think he will ever be able to even attempt to comprehend how much i just fucking need him, i am talking about Belarusian guy again and again and even yet again, God when will i stop crying over him, well i thought i was done, but after i got off the phone with him about a week ago... i just about died all over againsobbing her eyes out for a guy that most likely despises her existence... it kills me to realize this and these fucking spanish love songs are NOT helping my cause or my sanity. He makes me go temporarily insane, seriously last week it wasnt as bad as it had been before, i remember screaming once and crumpling to the floor, just as fucking dramatic as it gets, too bad nobody saw i could have won an oscar for that performance... and just i dont know he gets to me like under my skin and then eviscerates me laughing and throwing popcorn.... dont ask long story. Anyways i really like that word! i think i got it from danny. Now i am talking to derrek, hes okay nice guy i guess just has some things that get to me...okay well i must drink something and then off to sleep, spokoinoi nochi lubovya, udachi
and FOR the records, i still loathe myself with a fiery passion... On the brighter side of town, loyyyyyy haha i liked the first journal entry, it made me smile *cheese* :-D yee i made a smiley face, its pretty awesome and his name is sam. thank you loy, seriously it really touched me and made my day, which was kinda crappy to begin with. YOU SHOULD COME WITH ME TO RUSSIA..(shit!) I MEAN BELARUS, damn i got so used to telling people that, that i started saying it now! DAMN THEM SPAWNS OF SAINTAN...how do you you spell that, i have been having issues with the english language these days like you wouldnt believe, even though i know speak it 24/7 again, which should even matter since its my first language!!!! This is lame. And you know when i get back...hehe i should probably not jump right back into my job of teaching people english because, well lets just say i have a talent...is that what we are calling it now, most just call it stupid or annoying. WELL TOO BAD I AM CALLING IT A TALENT X-P!! anyways i possess a talent of acquiring accents, habits and cultural traits in very little time, and its really weird because i do these things unconsciously, like for example when i say the world tortillas, or enchiladas or Andres's name or anything like that, i say it with a spanish accent unconciously and people, if they know me they give me an odd look and usually say "Courtney you are American, talk like one." which is really embarrassing because sometimes i dont like being the weird one..it okay for some things but not that.. and i say good weird, like a russian, i dont know where this came from...but you know i bet loy would talk like a japanese girl and have an accent if she could just to confuse people. i do this when i am in a new environment, i always talk with an accent, just because i feel more secure that way, like they are not hearing the real me.. its kinda weird i always do this with strangers and sometimes its just fun, because i can be convincing and i grow bored of america and speaking english all the time, really i do, this is why i have this desire, this overwhelming, all-consuming urge to travel and study language abroad. This is why i loved my job so much and why i liked being with Antonio, because i didnt have to speak english in fact it was prefered that i didnt, and i loved that, i even spoke spanish with americans learning spanish just because i just felt good doing it!! Seriously it made life sooo interesting i was never bored of america then. Oww my nipples hurt, probably because of my stupid lame ass period. I AM JUST LIKE OBSSESSED WITH THIS GUY, AS I HAVE BEEN FOR A WHILE NOW, BUT I THINK ABOUT HIM WAY TOO MUCH... i dont think he will ever be able to even attempt to comprehend how much i just fucking need him, i am talking about Belarusian guy again and again and even yet again, God when will i stop crying over him, well i thought i was done, but after i got off the phone with him about a week ago... i just about died all over againsobbing her eyes out for a guy that most likely despises her existence... it kills me to realize this and these fucking spanish love songs are NOT helping my cause or my sanity. He makes me go temporarily insane, seriously last week it wasnt as bad as it had been before, i remember screaming once and crumpling to the floor, just as fucking dramatic as it gets, too bad nobody saw i could have won an oscar for that performance... and just i dont know he gets to me like under my skin and then eviscerates me laughing and throwing popcorn.... dont ask long story. Anyways i really like that word! i think i got it from danny. Now i am talking to derrek, hes okay nice guy i guess just has some things that get to me...okay well i must drink something and then off to sleep, spokoinoi nochi lubovya, udachi