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So last week came close to being about the worst week of my life. I don’t wanna talk about it because then it’s like reliving the moment. On some good notes. Varsity Softball is 9 and 0...that’s right we are undefeated!! After the game on Friday I went with Brooke to Wallmart, then I spent the night at her house. Fun fun stuff. We just hung out which was cool because on a more depressing note I was going to go out and look for my cat. So I’m glad I did something different. Saturday I was pretty sad all day. Then Katie had her 16th Party. That was amazingly awesome! We went out to Applebee’s where our waiter was...just odd hahah! Then we came back and walked around the neighborhood drawing with chalk lol! Left a few messages at Scott’s house ha! Played an intense game of capture the flag. Some more games after that...woke up and felt like I couldn’t move. Took a Nap Today!!! hahah I was so happy I actually fell asleep! well that was the weekend for ya....
on a more depressing note that I have to get out...I'm so extremely sad about spooky. I think its because I really don’t know what happened to him. I mean I don’t know if he is dead, how he died, if he’s alive, where is he alive, is he in a house, is he in the cold weather...thinking about it makes me cry every time. But I can’t stop thinking about it. When I was at the party everyone was like Lauren you look tired and I was like No I’m not. The real reason was because I just keep thinking about him. Idk its just a cat right? But I guess its because whenever I'm sad I go to him to just to get comfort, and now that he’s not here it makes me cry even harder because I feel alone. Last night I had a dream about him, and when I woke up it was a terrible feeling...and the fact that I'm sick, already feel depressed about other things, and I’ve been visited ((ha if you know what I mean)) doesn’t help out the situation
love to all
What a fierce yawn haha
RIP Spooky 4/26/05