dont ever mind
haven't been on this thing forever.
nothing new! imagine that bollocks. Laid off again. My bad luck is just, insurmountable. yeah! well, I can't really deem this as, bad luck. It's more like, bad luck in disguise of better oppurtunuities. That I'm not currently aware of but, okay. I THINK, i think part of it is to focus on writing. I am capable. I am. I just need to, focus on it. But I can do this. I know I can. I might even try and find something as a server/waitress or continue with CSR. I don't know.
I'm currently working as one downtown, part time, for $8/hr for the most 15 hr per week...but its something. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't have the balls for suicide but I may take being committed to a mental institution, because in a minute, I'm about ready to strongly consider suicide. Blah. Damned life goals. I have after life goals and none of them include fire, brimstone...I hate summer for that reason.
On the otherhand, my book, "Charles in Peices," is going very well. I've deleted the whole thing and started over. Same story, just a different format, omitted a character or two, and viola! More effective story! Yeah!
I'm not well. I'm going to a clinic to get some mood stabilizers. I'm feeling very hostile. The chocolate is not helping. I was actually so much better before I typed this up but now I feel hostile. It might be the fellow Floridians I'm calling begging them to do a survey and you know how people are when you call them with that bollocks. See, I'm better now, actually. Sad. Anyway, book good, career sucks ass.